Making friends is always a challenge especially in a new school or new place. Throughout high school it seems that we are friends with everyone but secretly hate every single person as well. We are taught to out compete each other and gossip circulates faster than you could think. Because of this, when college approaches it's time for us to decide who is worth our time after it becomes more of a long distance relationship. This is why so many high school relationships dissipate.
College is all about new experiences. During my freshman year I met a lot of people. Though some of the friendships have stuck, many, like my freshman year, were soon over. This wasn't something new for me. Many of my friendships throughout high school weren't the strongest and I never really felt like I could find my fit. I had friends, but I also felt like I was on the out skirts.
Sophomore year I became closest with the first person I could honestly and truly call my best friend. It took a while to establish this connection but that was primarily my fault. Because of the way I was with friendships throughout high school I always kept people at an arms distance. I never trusted that people actually cared to be my friend that desperately anyway.
We spent a lot of time together, I became comfortable. It was something that just became routine and we saw each other almost everyday. Through her I was able to develop and further my friendships with other people as well.
When the end of the year hit and the reality of her graduating came I pushed myself away. It didn't seem like there was a reason to hold on to someone that was going to be gone soon anyway. But she showed me that there are people who are willing to stand the test of time and distance because they love you.
It's so hard to find people who would be willing to move mountains for your happiness, as well as fighting all your demons with you. When you do though, never let go of that person. They will be your knight in shining armor long before any guy ever will be. They will show you that you deserve so much more, and give you so much more.
Thank you so much to the person who made me realize this. Who is continuously there for me even through the phone and at any time of the day. We accept the love we think we deserve, but in reality we deserve so much more than that. Thank you for making me realize that.
