9 Things I'd Do If I Didn't Hold Myself Back

9 Things I'd Do If I Didn't Hold Myself Back

We all let our insecurities and fears hold us back, so here's nine things I'd do if they weren't holding me back.

I'm constantly telling myself that I'm going to do something...then I never do it. I chicken out. One day I've got a plan and the next I just let it vanish because I'm too nervous or afraid, sometimes even lazy, to enact that plan. I'm too afraid to find out what the outcome is, to face the chance of being disappointed even though the flipside to that is being proud. Confident, even. I do this because of my anxiety, because of my fear of failure, because here lately my life has taught me that boring is better. So here's a list of all of the things that I'd do if I didn't hold myself back...and who knows, maybe by putting them down on paper (well, technically on the internet), I'll be more likely to accomplish them.

1. Go on a road trip to see the world’s quirkiest things.


Since high school, I’ve had a dream of going around and seeing the craziest stuff America has to offer, like the World’s Largest Lightbulb, the Beer Can House, Carhenge, The World’s Largest Basket, and Galleto Meadows, just to name a few. I’ve never found anyone willing to take a trip like this, but I’ve always thought that maybe once I graduate with my degree, it’ll be time. Then, of course, I promptly talk myself down and assume that a million things would go wrong while I’m driving alone.

2. Get a tattoo.

A lot of my friends have one, but this really, seriously freaks me out because (a) it’s permanent and what if what I get doesn’t mean the same thing to me 30 years from now? (b) I’m afraid to get it any place that will either shrink if I lose weight or expand if I gain (dear lord, please no), and (c) I’m terrified I’ll be that girl who only had a dot because it hurt too bad.

3. Color my hair.

I’ve been obsessed with this hairstyle/color that Mae Whitman has in this picture, but the thought of coloring my hair is daunting. I’ve always been the type to hack off my hair in a moment’s notice and regret it a second later, so I don’t want that to happen with this.

4. Wear a huge sweater and tights and look like I don’t give a crap.

I’m so jealous of the girls who can wear this look and look absolutely flawless and thin. I’m pretty sure I’d look like a trash bag disguised a pumpkin. I’ve always been too self-conscious of the way I look, and I always get outfit-approval before I leave the house because I’m afraid to be judged…but the thing is, no one except for me is really judging me.

5. Give a cute guy my number.

I’m the shy type, so this is scary. I’m in awe of anyone who can do without turning the color of a tomato and sounding like they’ve swallowed their dog’s squeaker toy. Knowing me, I’d probably give over my mom’s phone number because I always accidentally give hers out instead to the sweepstakes I sign up for or on other forms, because that’s my most often called.

6. Go to a random concert.

I’m quite the music freak. I have a stack of CDs in my car’s consul because I listen to them too much to put back in the case with other CDs. Recently, I’ve been listening to a lot of The Head and the Heart, Johnny Cash, Mumford and Sons and The Avett Brothers (my most favorite band ever). I wish that I was one of those people going to indie band concerts and passing on music recommendations to other people. I just want to share my love for powerful lyrics, chill-inducing music and songs worth blaring in your car. Windows open, of course.

7. Find PBs (potential bridesmaids).

Although I don’t have a boyfriend (yet), I’m one of those girls already planning out my wedding. I tape "Say Yes to the Dress," think about color schemes and have songs (walking down the aisle to “Like Real People Do” by Hozier, first dance to “I Won’t Give Up” by Jason Mraz, dance with my dad to “A Father’s First Spring” by The Avett Brothers. The one thing that I’m missing is bridesmaids, and that’s simply because I don’t have a whole lot of close friends—sure, I have a lot of friends, but not many that I’m super close with. So “Potential Bridesmaids” is a lot like Find a squad or Make some best friends.

8. Order something other than a cheeseburger.

Everywhere I go, I order a cheeseburger. Seriously. I’m afraid to try anything new because I don’t want to waste money on something I might not like. So it’s always a cheeseburger, plain except for the cheese and pickles, with ketchup.

9. Be myself.


I tend to be overly introverted, although it’s gotten better (I think) since I got to college. I want people to see that I’m funny, way competitive, nice, silly and a strong-willed individual.

The thing about it is, all of these are tangible...things I can do if I just put forth the effort and stash all of my fears and insecurities away. I am who I am, and the only way to make myself shine and to make my dreams come true, is to let them. So maybe I should start doing that, huh?
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When you want to diss a hater:

    1. "You couldn't get a fan if it was hangin' from the ceilin."
    2. "I'm throwing shade like it's sunny."
    3. "I'm in my own lane, you ain't in my category."
    4. "These (girls) couldn’t test me even if their name was Pop Quiz."
    5. "Yo, people will love you and support you when it's beneficial. I'ma forgive, I won't forget, but I'ma dead the issue."
    6. "Not that I don't got good vision, but I don't see competition."
    7. "I’m Angelina, you Jennifer. Come on (girl), you see where Brad at."
    8. "I look like "yes" and you look like "no"."
    9. "But if you're ugly it's a no text zone."
    10. "If you are my rival, then that means you're suicidal."
    11. "Shout out to my haters, Sorry that you couldn't faze me."
    12. "Trash talk to 'em then I put 'em in a Hefty."
    13. "Like I mean I don't even know why you girls bother at this point. Like give up, it's me, I win, you lose."
    14. "All these haters mad because I'm so established."
    15. "Competition? why yes I would love some."

When you want to tell people how awesome you are:

    16. "If I'm fake I ain't notice, cause my money ain't."
    17. "You can hate me, but why knock my hustle? I'ma be the queen, no matter how they shuffle."
    18. "Let me make this clear, I’m not difficult, I’m just ’bout my business."
    19. "I'm feelin' myself."
    20. "Excuse me honey, but nobody's in my lane."
    21. "Put me on a dollar cause I'm who they trust in."
    22. "I don’t say “Hi”, I say “Keys to the Benz.”"
    23. "I've been hot since flip phones" "Running this game for 5 years. Guess that's why my feet hurt."
    24. "Hotter than a middle eastern climate."
    25. "My money’s so tall that my Barbies gotta climb it."
    26. "No, I'm not lucky, I'm blessed, yes."
    27."I ain't gotta compete with a single soul."
    28. "'X' in the box, cause ain't nobody checking me."
    29."Excuse me, I'm sorry, I'm really such a lady."
    30. "Honestly I gotta stay as fly as I can be."

When you're hanging with your clique:

    31. "Cherish these nights, cherish these people. Life is a movie, but there will never be a sequel."
    32. "I’m with some hood girls lookin’ back at it."
    33. "We dope girls, we flawless. We the poster girls for all this."
    34. "Pretty gang, always keep them (boys) on geek."
    35. "The night is still young, and so are we!"
    36. "If you ain’t on the team, you playin’ for team D, ’Cause we A-listers, we paid sisters."
    37. "Pretty (girls) only could get in my posse."
    38. "Cause we the mean girls, y-yes we so fetch."
    39. "We fresh to death, down to the shoes."
    40. "Ain't at no wedding but all my girls cake tops."
    41. "Got a whole bunch of pretty gang in my clique."
    42. "Clap for the heavyweight champ, me, But I couldn't do it all alone, WE."
    43. "Put your drinks up, It's a celebration every time we link up."
    44. "I'm with some flawless (girls) because they be mobbin' pretty."

When you're hanging with your significant other:

    45. "He tryna kick it like a ninja."
    46. "He could tell that I was wifey material."
    47. "Ayo, I just wanna be your first go to."
    48. "You got spark, you, you got spunk. You, you got something all the girls want."
    49. Find me in the dark, I'll be in the stars, Find me in your heart, I'm in need of your love."
    50. "They holler at me, but it's you, you."
    51. "I'm not living right, I’m not living if you’re not by my side."
    52. "I just wanna be somebody that can add to, your wife, be a friend, be a teacher and a fan, too."
    53. "I just wanna be your favorite."
    54. "He was the realest, I was the baddest, we was the illest."
    55. "I know you can save me and make me feel alive."
    56. "Yes I'll be your girl, forever your lady, You ain't ever gotta worry, I'm down for you baby."
    57. "Baby you my everything, You all I ever wanted."

When you're single and loving it:

    58. "You could be the king, but watch the queen conquer!"
    59. "Thats why I'm crowned queen, and I ain't looking for the prom king."
    60. "I like independent, like July 4th."
    61. "I ain't never need a man, to take care of me."
    62. "He be like, "Yo, you so legendary", But he can tell just by my face he ain't getting any."
    63. "I am not Jasmine, I am Aladdin."
    64. "I don't even brake when I'm backing up, I'll swerve on a (boy) if he acting up."
    65. "So many boys in here where do I begin?"

When you're just living life:

    66. "I never worry, life is a journey. I just wanna enjoy the ride."
    67. "Tonight is the night that I'ma get twisted."
    68. "I’mma keep it movin', be classy and graceful."
    69. "So make sure the stars is what you aim for, make mistakes though."
    70. "And we gon' hangover the next day. But we will remember this day."
    71. "My only motto in my life is don't lose."
    72. "Take me, or leave me, I'll never be perfect. Believe me, I'm worth it."
    73. "I believe that life is a prize, but to live doesn't mean you're alive."
    74. "I wish that I could have this moment for life."
    75. "If I scream, if I cry, It's only 'cause I feel alive."
    76. "I can't believe it, it's so amazing. This club is heating, this party's blazing.""
    77. "It's so amazing, I figured out this world is ours for the taking."
    78. "I am not a girl that can ever be defined."
    79. "I got next, I'm gonna shine."
    80. "This is my moment I just feel so alive."

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