9 Things I'd Do If I Didn't Hold Myself Back

9 Things I'd Do If I Didn't Hold Myself Back

We all let our insecurities and fears hold us back, so here's nine things I'd do if they weren't holding me back.

I'm constantly telling myself that I'm going to do something...then I never do it. I chicken out. One day I've got a plan and the next I just let it vanish because I'm too nervous or afraid, sometimes even lazy, to enact that plan. I'm too afraid to find out what the outcome is, to face the chance of being disappointed even though the flipside to that is being proud. Confident, even. I do this because of my anxiety, because of my fear of failure, because here lately my life has taught me that boring is better. So here's a list of all of the things that I'd do if I didn't hold myself back...and who knows, maybe by putting them down on paper (well, technically on the internet), I'll be more likely to accomplish them.

1. Go on a road trip to see the world’s quirkiest things.


Since high school, I’ve had a dream of going around and seeing the craziest stuff America has to offer, like the World’s Largest Lightbulb, the Beer Can House, Carhenge, The World’s Largest Basket, and Galleto Meadows, just to name a few. I’ve never found anyone willing to take a trip like this, but I’ve always thought that maybe once I graduate with my degree, it’ll be time. Then, of course, I promptly talk myself down and assume that a million things would go wrong while I’m driving alone.

2. Get a tattoo.

A lot of my friends have one, but this really, seriously freaks me out because (a) it’s permanent and what if what I get doesn’t mean the same thing to me 30 years from now? (b) I’m afraid to get it any place that will either shrink if I lose weight or expand if I gain (dear lord, please no), and (c) I’m terrified I’ll be that girl who only had a dot because it hurt too bad.

3. Color my hair.

I’ve been obsessed with this hairstyle/color that Mae Whitman has in this picture, but the thought of coloring my hair is daunting. I’ve always been the type to hack off my hair in a moment’s notice and regret it a second later, so I don’t want that to happen with this.

4. Wear a huge sweater and tights and look like I don’t give a crap.

I’m so jealous of the girls who can wear this look and look absolutely flawless and thin. I’m pretty sure I’d look like a trash bag disguised a pumpkin. I’ve always been too self-conscious of the way I look, and I always get outfit-approval before I leave the house because I’m afraid to be judged…but the thing is, no one except for me is really judging me.

5. Give a cute guy my number.

I’m the shy type, so this is scary. I’m in awe of anyone who can do without turning the color of a tomato and sounding like they’ve swallowed their dog’s squeaker toy. Knowing me, I’d probably give over my mom’s phone number because I always accidentally give hers out instead to the sweepstakes I sign up for or on other forms, because that’s my most often called.

6. Go to a random concert.

I’m quite the music freak. I have a stack of CDs in my car’s consul because I listen to them too much to put back in the case with other CDs. Recently, I’ve been listening to a lot of The Head and the Heart, Johnny Cash, Mumford and Sons and The Avett Brothers (my most favorite band ever). I wish that I was one of those people going to indie band concerts and passing on music recommendations to other people. I just want to share my love for powerful lyrics, chill-inducing music and songs worth blaring in your car. Windows open, of course.

7. Find PBs (potential bridesmaids).

Although I don’t have a boyfriend (yet), I’m one of those girls already planning out my wedding. I tape "Say Yes to the Dress," think about color schemes and have songs (walking down the aisle to “Like Real People Do” by Hozier, first dance to “I Won’t Give Up” by Jason Mraz, dance with my dad to “A Father’s First Spring” by The Avett Brothers. The one thing that I’m missing is bridesmaids, and that’s simply because I don’t have a whole lot of close friends—sure, I have a lot of friends, but not many that I’m super close with. So “Potential Bridesmaids” is a lot like Find a squad or Make some best friends.

8. Order something other than a cheeseburger.

Everywhere I go, I order a cheeseburger. Seriously. I’m afraid to try anything new because I don’t want to waste money on something I might not like. So it’s always a cheeseburger, plain except for the cheese and pickles, with ketchup.

9. Be myself.


I tend to be overly introverted, although it’s gotten better (I think) since I got to college. I want people to see that I’m funny, way competitive, nice, silly and a strong-willed individual.

The thing about it is, all of these are tangible...things I can do if I just put forth the effort and stash all of my fears and insecurities away. I am who I am, and the only way to make myself shine and to make my dreams come true, is to let them. So maybe I should start doing that, huh?
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50 Quotes from the Best Vines

If you're picturing the vines in your head, you're doing it right

In 2017 we had to say goodbye to one of the best websites to ever roam the internet: Vine. In case you have been living under a rock since 2013, Vine was -(sad face)- a website and app that took the internet and the app store by storm in Winter 2013. It contained 6-second videos that were mostly comedy- but there were other genres including music, sports, cool tricks and different trends. Vine stars would get together and plan out a vine and film it till they got it right.

It was owned by Twitter and it was shut down because of so many reasons; the viners were leaving and making money from Youtube, there was simply no money in it and Twitter wanted us to suffer.

There's been a ton of threads on Twitter of everyone's favorite vines so I thought I'd jump in and share some of my favorites. So without further ado, here are some quotes of vines that most vine fanatics would know.

1. "AHH...Stahhp. I coulda dropped mah croissant"

2. "Nate how are those chicken strips?" "F%#K YA CHICKEN STRIPS.....F%#K ya chicken strips!"

3. "Road work ahead? Uh Yea, I sure hope it does"

4. "Happy Crimus...." "It's crismun..." "Merry crisis" "Merry chrysler"

5. "...Hi Welcome to Chili's"

6. "HoW dO yOu kNoW wHaT's gOoD fOr mE?" "THAT'S MY OPINIONNN!!!.."

7."Welcome to Bible Study. We're all children of Jesus... Kumbaya my looordd"

8. Hi my name's Trey, I have a basketball game tomorrow. Well I'm a point guard, I got shoe game..."

9. "It's a avocadooo...thanks"

10. "Yo how much money do you have?" "69 cents" "AYE you know what that means?" "I don't have enough money for chicken nuggets"

11. "Hurricane Katrina? More like Hurricane Tortilla."

12. "Hey Tara you want some?" "This b*%th empty. YEET!"

13. "Get to Del Taco. They got a new thing called Freesha-- Free-- Freeshavaca do"

14. "Mothertrucker dude that hurt like a buttcheek on a stick"

15. "Two brooss chillin in a hot tub 5 feet apart cuz they're not gay"

16. "Jared can you read number 23 for the class?" "No I cannot.... What up I'm Jared, I'm 19 and I never f#@%in learned how to read."

17. "Not to be racist or anything but Asian people SSUUGHHH"

18. 18. "I wanna be a cowboy baby... I wanna be a cowboy baby"

19. "Hey, I'm lesbian" "I thought you were American"

20. "I spilled lipstick in your Valentino bag" "you spilled- whaghwhha- lipstick in my Valentino White bag?"

21. "What's better than this? Guys bein dudes"

22. "How'd you get these bumps? ya got eggzma?" "I got what?" "You got eggzma?"

23. "WHAT ARE THOSEEEEE?" "THEY are my crocs!"

24. "Can I get a waffle? Can I please get a waffle?"

25. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAVEN!" "I can't sweem"

26. "Say Coloradoo" "I'M A GIRAFFE!!"

27. "How much did you pay for that taco?" Aight yo you know this boys got his free tacoo"

28. *Birds chirping* "Tweekle Tweekle"

29. "Girl, you're thicker than a bowl of oatmeal"

30. "I brought you Frankincense" "Thank you" "I brought you Myrrh" "Thank you" "Mur-dur" "huh...Judas..no"

31. "Sleep? I don't know about sleep...it's summertime" "You ain't go to bed?" "Oh she caught me"

32. "All I wanna tell you is school's not important... Be whatever you wanna be. If you wanna be a dog...RUFF. You know?"33. "Oh I like ya accent where you from?" "I'm Liberian" "Oh, my bad *whispering* I like your accent..."

34. "Next Please" "Hello" "Sir, this is a mug shot" "A mug shot? I don't even drink coffee"

35. "Hey did you happen to go to class last week?" "I have never missed a class"

36. "Go ahead and introduce yourselves" "My name is Michael with a B and I've been afraid of insects my entire-" "Stop, stop, stop. Where?" "Hmm?" "Where's the B?" "There's a bee?"

37. "There's only one thing worse than a rapist...Boom" "A child" "No"

38. "Later mom. What's up me and my boys are going to see Uncle Kracker...GIVE ME MY HAT BACK JORDAN! DO YOU WANNA SEE UNCLE KRACKER OR NO?

39. "Dad look, it's the good kush." This is the dollar store, how good can it be?"

40. "Zach stop...Zach stop...You're gonna get in trouble. Zach"

41. "CHRIS! Is that a weed? "No this is a crayon-" I'm calling the police" *puts 911 into microwave* "911 what's your emergency"

42. "WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? "

43. *Blowing vape on table* * cameraman blows it away* "ADAM"

44. "Would you like the spider in your hand?" "Yea" "Say please" "Please" *puts spider in hand* *screams*

45. "Oh hi, thanks for checking in I'm still a piece of garrbaagge"

46. *girl blows vape* "...WoW"

47. *running* "...Daddy?" "Do I look like-?"

48. *Pours water onto girl's face" "Hello?"

49. "Wait oh yes wait a minute Mr. Postman" "HaaaAHH"

50. "...And they were roommates" "Mah God they were roommates"

I could literally go on forever because I just reference vines on a daily basis. Rest in peace Vine

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15 Simple Things You Can Do To Make Someone's Day Today

Make this summer about more than just you.

Summer is finally here and for many of us, that means a time full of rest and relaxation. We have fewer obligations and therefore much more time to focus on the things that matter the most to us. As we enter into warmer days, here are 15 easy and inexpensive things you can do for someone else.

1. Write a letter (yes, an actual letter) to someone you haven't spoken to in a while.

Whether it be a family member or an old friend, the art of writing letters is dying. Make someone's day, send some snail mail.

2. Bake cookies for a police or fire station.

We're incredibly fortunate to have so many policemen and firemen waiting in the wings if something goes wrong. Show your appreciation for them and deliver a sweet treat to a local station.

3. Make dinner for a neighbor.

Everyone has hard weeks but even in the weeks that aren't so hard, doing something kind for a neighbor or busy mom can make all of the difference in their sanity.

4. Compliment someone walking down the street (in a non-creepy way).

No explanation needed. There's nothing nicer than getting that little boost of confidence from someone you don't know.

5. Donate old clothes or toys.

You're not going to wear them or play with them anymore anyway. Why not make the day or the week of someone else that can't afford all that you can. Also, there may be no intention of ulterior motives, but a clean closet leaves room for more clothes (just sayin').

6. Call a family member just to say hi.

Family is super important and when you get older it can get tough to keep in touch with those that don't live close. One 10 minute phone call will make their day and probably earn you some family bonus points too.

7. Pay for the person behind you in line.

Who knows what kind of day the person behind you is having, a $10 act of kindness (maybe even less) could brighten an entire morning.

8. Knock out some extra house chores.

Leaving all of the housework for one person is unfair and brutal. Sometimes the only way to help a stressed-out parent is by making their time at home even less demanding.

9. Donate canned or boxed foods to the local food pantry.

We all have that one corner of the panty that has canned food not seen or touched for 2 years. Clean out your pantry and provide a meal for someone in need. It's a win-win scenario.

10. Clean up trash in your neighborhood.

If you, the person who lives there, don't care about how it looks why should anyone else? Take pride in your town and pick up some trash.

11. Put together care packages for the homeless.

What a rewarding way to give to those in need. Sometimes it can be hard to give out cash, and instead, a care package seems to do more good.

12. Sign up to volunteer in your town.

Once again, you live there, DON'T YOU? Take pride in your town. Who knows who you may meet along the way.

13. Take flowers to a friend.

Diamonds are the key to a girls heart, BUT if you can't afford to bring home a bouquet of diamonds, flowers just may be your next best bet.

14. Leave extra change in a vending machine for the next person.

What a nice $1 way to make someone's day.

15. Leave kind notes in random places.

Not all kind actions have to have monetary value. In fact, most of the best ones don't. Leave behind a sweet note, that may make even more of a difference than giving money.

We've all been in the mood to wake up and do something good for someone around us. Take the first step in having a great summer and be a friend to someone new. Odds are, you'll end up benefitting yourself more than you could ever benefit the other person.

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