The end of a relationship is so often talked about, but I feel that it can be just as painful to lose a best friend as it would a significant other. These are the things I wish I could say to the person who was once my closest friend.
1. I am so glad that I met you and that we had the friendship that we did.
Thinking about all of the amazing trips, holidays, sleepovers, parties, and school trips we had together makes me so happy and nostalgic. We cried on each other's shoulders, got in trouble together, laughed together, and stood by one another. We were included in each other families and we planned out our futures: visiting each other in college, traveling, and being in each other's weddings. You knew things about me that I hadn't told another soul and I know it was the same for you.
2. I'm not angry or resentful towards you.
I know we both made mistakes and even though you might think I am, I'm not holding yours against you. We're in such different places now and the things you did that hurt me do not define anything about who you are as a person, just as I hope my mistakes do not make me who I am.
3. I still miss you and will always love and care for you.
We've been through too much together for me to ever stop caring for you. No two friendships are the same and ours was something that only we really know and that no one else will have. I will always wish you the best and want only positive things for you. We were hardly ever seen without each other in high school and I didn't think I could survive without you. You were my other half and even when we didn't agree and fought, we got through it. Even though things had to change, they didn't end.
4. I'm glad to have been on my own.
When we stopped being friends it felt like my life stopped. I don't know if you felt the same, but I didn't know how I would go on and be myself without you when I felt like you were such a strong part of me. However, it needed to happen because I was way too dependent on you and I'm sorry for that. I know now that you can't depend on someone else for your happiness and you have to be able to create it yourself. I realize that I can rely on myself as well as other friends and family, and putting it all on one person is not healthy.
5. Nothing is permanent.
No matter what you are feeling in the moment, you can't define it as your feelings forever. We don't know what will happen in the future, and even though right now it might be the best for us to not be friends, one day that could change. At the end of the day just know I'm always here for you. So thank you for being my person for so many years. I'm sorry that it couldn't be the same, and I wish you nothing but the best in life.
