2018 Was The Year To Learn

2018 Was A Year For Learning

A learning experience that will stay with my forever.


As 2018 is slowly ticking down, I say goodbye to many of my worst and best memories that have helped me grow into the strong, young woman of 2019.

The first six months of 2018 were probably the worst months of my entire life. I was still battling my eating disorders. I never liked who I was, or what I looked like. I cared way too much about what everyone thought of me, like that actually matters. I was never satisfied with myself.

My mentality was not in a good place to begin with because at the start of 2018, I had already began relapsing from the last four months of my eating disorder.

Anyway, looking back on that has taught me to be gentle and patient with myself. Everyone is different. Bodies change, people change. Learning to accept myself for who I am took a long time, and I am still learning. But I see myself in a different, better way. I am stronger, more outgoing, understanding, patient, and loving. I gave myself time to grow, and that is exactly what I am doing now.

This year has also taught me that everyone is not going to like you, and that's okay. You cannot please everyone. But be kind and respectful of every person's feelings and ambitions.

I learned to be a little selfish. I am, and will always be, a giver. If you call me, I'm there. That is who I am and that I know, will never change. However, I do take the time to be selfish with myself and my feelings. If you aren't selfish with yourself and how you want to live, then you will always being living in someone else's life.

2018 has given me a passion for writing, and promoting body positivity. Sometimes, people think that I post body image pictures for attention, or acknowledgement. And if you want to keep telling yourself that, go ahead. But I am a writer. I am also a person who has gone through enough to know the feeling of worthlessness, negativity or self disgust. In that case, I do consider myself a promoter of body positivity, strength, and self love and care. I do what I do for the girls and boys who are struggling to find themselves and those issues but hold on to hope for themselves that they can be happy with who they are.

I have learned to take care of myself and my feelings. I have been hurt, used, and let down. But for that I am thankful, because it only helps me to grow into a better person. To better myself, and focus on who I want to become.

Looking back on 2018, I see heartbreak, sadness, weakness, loss, and anger. But, through the aches and pains, I see hope, happiness, content, and strength.

Now I can see that 2018 was my year to LEARN.

And 2019 is my year to GROW.

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21 Reasons You Should Date Someone Who Was A Camp Counselor

Spouse and parent material, all wrapped up in an animal shirt, Nike shorts, and Chacos.

1. They shop at Goodwill mostly... low maintenance you could say?

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2. They are pretty awesome at talking to parents... opening days have given good practice for them. Give them 15 minutes and they will become best friends with your parents.

3. Their best friends actually are long distance...so you can wait a while to meet their besties who will want to know everything about you and make sure your intentions are good.

4. They have learned how to look decently presentable without showering for a week... maybe two...you may or may not like this one.

5. They are always down for adventure... sure let's hike for eight miles uphill in the middle of the week!

6. They know what it is like to be woken up at 2 a.m. because someone wet their bed... mom training.

7. They also know how to give the "modest is hottest" talk to the teenage campers... and will help give you a classy future daughter.

8. Building fires is their hidden talent... if you ever get stuck on a deserted island with them they can help you.

9. Animal shirts are a common clothing item... they know how to have fun.

10. They throw killer dance parties... ones your grandma would approve of.

11. They are used to being publicly embarrassed for others (their campers') enjoyment... and usually can take a joke or prank well.

12. They also know how to prank you back... summer camp prepares you for awesome prank wars.

13. If you want to see her with no makeup on just look at her camp photos... natural beauty?

14. They actually love children... they chose to spend a whole summer loving other people's kids; imagine how awesome they will treat their own.

15. Chances are they are a really fun person and will bring out your inner child... yes, climb that random tree and paint your face because it is Wednesday.

16. Their "real job" will come later in life... they will end up being successful. Most employers love to hire former counselors, so it is not a waste of a summer.

17. They know how to hide their favorites in life really well... so if they choose to date you they are basically saying you are their favorite and that is a big deal to them.

18. They have learned how to eat unhealthy food every day for a whole summer and stay in shape... or try to at least.

19. They also are obviously not a diva when it comes to material needs...they went a whole summer without even air conditioning and never complained.

20. If they love you anything like they love their campers your needs will always be put first...they are some of the most selfless people you will ever meet.

21. They love God, living for Him, and have already made a difference in many children's lives... they are the real MVPS.

If you are still looking for a place to work this summer and love adventure, Jesus, and children, apply for Camp Crestridge for Girls; they still have many positions available. I'll be there so you should too!

If you are a boy apply for Camp Ridgecrest for Boys!

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You've Heard Of 'How To Be Single,' But Let's Talk About 'How To Be Romantic'

For some of us, it takes work to be cutesy and romantic.


Okay, I'm probably the least romantic person anyone has ever met. Not to say that I'm a bad girlfriend or that I'm not caring. I just find love in simple things like knowing what to order for them at restaurants, doing their laundry, planning unique dates, or cooking for them. It's not that I'm opposed to being arduous, I've just never been a chocolate and flowers kind of girl. I'm more of a Mongolian hot pot and "let's walk across the Brooklyn Bridge!" kind of girl. I appreciate some effort, tailoring something to fit a person's idiosyncratic personality or general spontaneity, not how flowery something looks. Not saying that I'm not feminine, I'm just my own entity, so to speak, and that translates into my love life. Needless to say, I thought I should learn how the other half lives, so I've challenged myself to take a course on being a classic/hopeless romantic just to understand how others think and who knows I might change some of my habits!

1. Leave notes

I think it's a really cute and simple idea that I will try to do because it makes everything very personal.

2. Write them a poem

I've had this done for me but I've never actually done it, because believe it or not, I didn't like to read or write poems up until this year.

3. Cuddling

Okay, so I'm not a cuddler, I have no idea why — it's more or less a personal space and attachment issue, I guess. I love hugs though! I guess I just have to be in the mood to cuddle and at times I can be. Other times it just makes me nervous.

4. Dedicate a song to them on the radio

It seems like the people on the radio that do this are crazy in love and honestly, to be able to have the ability to go on the radio and just declare your love for someone else is really inspiring.

5. Surprise them!

I personally cannot stand surprises, but I love to surprise other people and just be spontaneous, so I sort of do this already.

6. Carve your names into a tree

I've thought about doing this, but I've never got around to it, so I promise one day I will.

7. Go see a romantic movie

Nope, nope, I'll barf! Not happening, strictly horror movies for this girl, sorry!

8. Make them a care package

See, this makes me think a lot about what really defines romantic, because I do this all the time, but I don't consider it romantic, I just think it's sweet.

9. Take a walk on the beach together

I've done this, but I have to be doing this while looking for seashells or I feel like I'll be bored.

10. Make a CD for them


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