These last couple weeks have continued to be a challenge for my mental health. However, I have learned ten valuable points.
1. I'm Strong. I have fought off depression and experienced more breakdowns than I ever thought I would have to get through. I've been through my worst and still survived.
2. My bedroom is truly my sanctuary. I've eaten in bed, cried in bed, and stared out into the air completely out of my mind. I've written in bed and watched Netflix day after day. I've cleaned out drawers, doing anything to keep myself distracted.
3. I have the best friends any girls could ask for. My girls have given me advice that's been golden and helped me keep my sanity going. They've been honest and given me hard truth when needed and have checked in on me without me ever asking. They've kept me going when I didn't think I could.
4. My boyfriend is absolutely wonderful. Just seeing him on FaceTime or talking about anything even if it doesn't make sense, keeps me distracted and happy. Celebrating New Years together got me out of my prison and into the arms of something so much better. I didn't want to go home at all afterwards. He took care of me and I felt a calmness I hadn't felt in a long time.
5. My cat sure sleeps a lot. She sleeps next to me though and that's comforting no matter the amount of cat hair that gets everywhere. Every time I move she moves and its adorable. I love my fur friend.
6. Tumblr is great, but becomes exhausting when you are always on it and no one else is reblogging. Also the headaches you get from being on screens too long isn't fun either.
7. Music helps a lot. Simple as That.
8. Writing is hard when you're in a certain bad place and perhaps I should have tried, but I just couldn't. I didn't know what to write, how to write, all I could do was just be.
9. It's hard to get out of bed. It is the hardest thing one has to do each morning and some days there will be a day when you cannot get out. Those days you just have to try and rest your mind until you feel strong enough to force yourself to do what you don't want.
10. Understanding your pain is important. You have to know what you're feeling and why you are feeling it. This helps you understand yourself more and what's more important than that?
