I have lost many people in my life because they decided I wasn’t worth their time. Whether it be my best friend since Kindergarten, a relative, an ex, or a friend, the process is still the same.
Every person whose ever walked out of my life hurt differently. Some I truly didn’t mind losing. Others broke my heart.
I get really attached to people. I trust way too easily. This can be a good and bad character trait to have. On the one hand, I open myself up to great things. On the other hand, I make myself very vulnerable to getting hurt.
People walking out of your life is normal. Everyone experiences it from time to time. If anything, having people give up on me has taught me several things:
-Some people aren’t worth having in my life
-If they’re honestly going to walk out with no good explanation, they didn’t care that much about me anyway
-Letting go is necessary
-Some people don’t add to my life in a positive way, so it truly wasn’t my loss
-People can leave me at any point in time
-I trust WAY TOO MUCH
-I have to forgive people who have walked out on me. I don’t need the toxicity of holding onto a grudge
-If I meant anything to them, they will one day realize what they left behind by walking away from me
To the ones who got away:
You’re going to miss me.
I hope one day I cross your mind again. I hope you think back to all of the good memories we had together. I hope it makes you smile. I hope you sit there and think I wonder how she’s doing. I hope you regret giving up on me. I really hope you do.
When you left it hurt me a lot, let me tell you. It made me question if I was ever important to you. It made me regret opening up to you. It made me regret trusting you. It made me question why I wasn’t good enough for you to stay.
The joke is on you, though. I promise you that. I am one of the most caring people I have ever met. I put my all into every relationship I’ve had. If you’re important to me, I will let you in, open up to you, care about you, and love you with every piece of me.
This may seem like I’m wanting you back in my life. That’s not the case. I’ve lived without you, and I’ll continue to do so. If you’ve had the audacity to leave me, to make me feel unworthy of your presence, please do us both a favor and stay out of my life. I don’t need you. I did, at some point, need you. Or so I thought I did. If I wasn’t worth you staying then, I’m sure not going to wait for you to leave me again.
I don’t give up on people easily. If I truly care about and love someone, I will always be there for them. I guess you didn’t truly care or love me. At the end of the day, it’s your loss. I didn’t lose anything but time I wasted on you.
You’re going to miss how genuine I am. You’re going to miss my friendship. You’re going to miss me.
Lastly, I forgive you, but I’ll never forget the pain you put me through.
Love,
The girl you walked away from
