He hurt you, but you still want him. I understand, trust me. Although I think every girl understands this feeling, he cannot continue to keep hurting you if he is no longer in your life. I do not understand why he still is. But, in a way, I understand how hard it is and why it is too painful to let him go. So, for that, I support you, and I'll be there to pick up the pieces if or when he breaks your heart again. My part in your life is to make sure that, at the end of the day, you are emotionally stable. You will always have a shoulder to cry on, someone to call at two in the morning, and someone who can eat more ice cream than you after a fight with him. Even though I hate seeing you hurt and would do anything to make sure he does not ever hurt you again, I do love my role in your life and it is important to me to support you always.
I feel like he will always be someone I hear about and someone who won't easily be forgotten by you, but I still support you in whatever you feel towards him. And why is that? Well, I feel like you have to make your own mistakes and experience what you need to get the most out of him or what you think you can get from him. I remember being just like you when I visited an ex after college and how extremely hurt I was afterwards. I thank my friends for letting me do that because they knew I would have more regrets if I never realized how awful it was with my own eyes.
After knowing all that, I can much more easily convince myself that there is something better out there because no one should be treated that way. I hope you realize that that's what I am doing by just sitting back and listening to you rather than trying to influence how you feel about him. I want you to experience it for yourself so you never have those regrets and you know that you will be better off. You will learn so much from the pain and the hurt. You will learn what kind of person you really, who is really important to you, and why you want to be able to move on and experience something even better. And know I will always, ALWAYS, be here to help you, no matter what. You will not have to go through this alone, I promise.
What I really want you to take away from this letter is that just because he hurt you, does not mean that everyone or every guy will. I love you and your future boyfriend and husband will, too. The best is yet to come, my dear. So, just know that you are better off without him, but I support you always.
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