Heart racing, blood boiling, clock ticking, mind blank you stand there panting - you finally cracked. Between the finals, your usual social tensions and that one professor, you just couldn't take it anymore. Your books lay on the ground scattered like shards of glass. Thought you had it all figured out, you planned, studied ahead, were in all the study groups, slept on time... But for some strange reason it all fell apart today. Now the only thing that stands before you is some worn out door in some unfamiliar corner of the college.
Do you go in?
We all feel/felt that finals pressure, the one that keeps you up all night and makes you question why you chose the courses you did. We rush here and there, blow dust off our ancient notes from the beginning of the semester, we try everything and anything to stay afloat on all the pressure and sometimes we crack. Sometimes we cry, scream, shout, just plainly give up, fall sick even because we feel we can't do it. Maybe this happens for something other than finals; family issues, heartbreak, bad friends, a terrible mistake?
Either way we shouldn't be discouraged, because at this point, where we stand empty handed in front of some mysterious door leading "who knows where", we should take a breath and walk right in. Take a little bit of time to take a walk in the sunset, find a place away from you usual walking path in the school day, sit at that place which you thought was a bit oddly placed, look at the ceiling of your library... do something differently. Find a wonderland on the inside in an unfamiliar place. Explore yourself a bit. Introspect. As you think about yourself, observe the new surrounding taking notice of the differences it's uniqueness and I'm sure you'll find the same introspecting too. You see, it's not that you're incapable, it's that you forget just how awesome you are, how many ways you can do the same things, how unique you are, how crazy you are. You're a mad hatter who's been rushed here and there by a white hare, but now you must disappear like the Cheshire and re-appear as curios and courageous as Alice.
Open the door of your mind, walk into your sub-conscious mind and remember the beauty that is you. Let your thoughts lead you through the wonderland inside and emerge on the other side - very much the same and very much different. Take a moment to explore yourself and remember just how capable you are because you are. Dear person, you've made it this far and you can make it even further.
Dear person, take a breath, look around
...go in.
