We all have days where we feel we cannot push on any further. Our minds are filled with feelings of weakness, failure, and chaos; any bit of strength we try to muster is no longer there. Fighting the same battle day in and day out can be exhausting. How do we move forward when we are lost in the current of life?

This is a question I have asked myself many times, especially in the midst of feeling defeated by even the most basic aspects of life. There are days where I am shaken to my very core by the overwhelming nature of living with chronic and mental illness. I feel so lost and broken down, that it feels like there is no way to overcome it. Although, what is incredibly interesting about feeling this way is that I always come out of it stronger and steadier than I ever imagined I could be.

You have to be lost before you can be found. Living through moments of uncertainty can be incredibly overwhelming, but that does not make them impossible to beat. Overcoming these trials is a matter of looking within yourself and realizing how much purpose and drive you truly have inside. The truth of the matter is you can beat anything this life throws at you. How do I know that? Because I believe in you, but I also believe in something bigger than you – a God that loves and cherishes you simply for being yourself.

Faith is stronger than fear. Let me say that again: faith is STRONGER than fear. This goes for faith in God, as well as faith in yourself. Every day I remind myself that no mountain I climb is bigger than the God that is walking up that mountain with me. I know I am never alone in my struggles, and knowing that has helped me to understand that nothing will ever truly defeat me because God is in control of all things. That does not mean that nothing bad will ever happen, it simply means that even in the midst of those difficult and trying times I will always have a safe haven to turn to in the peace and calm of God’s love.

I choose not to be afraid because I know that I cannot control the problems with my health, mental or physical. All I can do is work every day to be the best person I can be, and learn methods to help me be as healthy as possible in all aspects.

So, if you are reading this there is one thing you should know – you are worthy, capable, and you have a purpose. No matter how sick you may be, or what mental or physical trials you may be facing, know that who you are is enough. You may have bad days, and weak days, but those days do not define you as a person. I believe in you, God believes in you, and it is time for you to believe in you. Go out in the world and do your best. Know that your best is more than enough. Keep fighting my dear, for you are a light in an all too dark world, and you make it a brighter and better place to be.

Love & Light,
Lexi F.