To those who have lost someone and the thought of them makes your heart clench,

There is a time in our lives that unfortunately we must suffer through, a time where we wished so badly that we could turn back time. Yet sadly, we can't, no matter how we wish it; it is the sad truth that in our lives we will lose people who we cherish. The people that made us smile when all we wanted to do is cry, the arms that felt so amazing wrapped around us. Just by being with them made all our worries and fears fade away, yet sadly we lose them unexpectedly and nothing can prepare you for it. Some of us try to imagine when that time would be, yet we still could not because the thought of losing them in the future seems impossible even though we know that in the end we all move on into the afterlife. Because admitting that they're actually gone seems like a nightmare and even now, as months pass, we want to cry and be in denial that they are truly gone. We think about them, to just imagine them here with us, that all this was just a terrible dream and if we called them they would answer us, yet sadly that's not going to happen. Have you ever thought about all the things you planned to do with them, the moments you would share in the upcoming years? Now it's stolen from us and those moments we planned to make have been ripped from us. The question that haunts us is Why? Why them? What did they ever do to be robbed of their precious life? A life with family, a life of untold memories, a life of laughter and tears. Now our lives are just a little bit emptier and a little less joyous.

Yet they would not want us to be sad, they would not want us to stay stuck in time. They would want us to keep on smiling even though we are in pain at this very moment in time. They would want us to make memories so that when it is our time, we can share with them all the things they were not able to witness. When I lost the person I wished I would have never lost I felt ... its hard to describe what you feel. Whether it is that numb feeling that you feel like you can no longer feel anything, like your heart has been wrapped around with ice and it holds you still, like someone is holding your heart tighter and tighter, preventing you from breathing. I cannot say it gets better because their absence is a continuous reminder of what we have lost. Yet just know that they are here with us. They live through the people around you. They breathe through the memories we made. It can be bittersweet, but be glad that you were able to know them, to share those moments with them, to have had the pleasure of calling them your loved one. Now that they're gone you do not ever want to forget about them. You will tell those around you and the children that one day you will have of this amazing person who was in your life, who you miss tremendously and how they pushed you forward to continue going after what you want.

I may not see you here, I may not hear your voice, but I know all I have to do is look up to the beautiful sky whether it is day or night I will see you shining bright, my own beacon of hope. Years will have passed and you will never fade away.

Forever and always I will love you.