I've always had a difficult time comprehending the concept that no matter what you do, you can never please everyone. I've been so cluelessly engulfed in proving my theory that you actually can please everyone- but have lost sight on my happiness in the process. It's a dangerous cycle in reality. Putting others before yourself is called selfless for a reason, there's a lot less of yourself being paid attention to and being taken care of, and if you're like me- a lot of the time means all of the time. It's been a bad habit for along as I can remember.

I have always done everything possible to make someone happy because nothing made more sense to me than making someone happy. It's always been a part of me, a piece so hard to break away from, you would think it was engraved within my being. It takes a toll on you really, when suddenly making one person happy becomes 2 people, 3 people, 4 people, so on- but the most damaging? Out of making all those people happy, you forget about yourself and what it takes to make you happy. The one person who will always be with you, the one person who deserves the most attention is the one who forgets who they are in the process. I'm guilty of it. However, I can't shake off the incredible overwhelming sense of warmth and happiness when I make someone else happy. SO I guess technically, making others happy can make you happy to a certain extent but it's situation dependent. And if you're also like me, sometimes these situations suck and leaving yourself unhappy is the worst decision made.

I've been trying to change my mentality to be quite frank. I think I'm frugal when it comes to spending my time for those who don't deserve it. Sometimes you spend a lot of time and effort and strength into making so many people happy that you also forget that some of these people are nowhere near worth your time, effort and breath. I've learned a lot in my last three years of college. With my undergraduate graduation merely a year away, I've been thinking about the future more than I would have anticipated. One of the most important lessons I've learned is the fact that it's totally okay to put your happiness before everyone else's. Life is a competition in every aspect, don't get stuck behind by putting your all into someone else. It's odd to wrap your head around but it's a change you should make indefinitely. It's a whole other world when you realize there's so much more to life than please everyone else. You will never be able to please everyone, and that's okay- you'll be okay.