The guy who I literal let get away with emotional murder and little does he know for his lack of emotions.

I care more then you care

You shouldn’t have said I love you because you made me smile and so happy and excited

I believed you and I'm the fool and you made me look like the fool

You give me a second of your time and when you do I feel like I'm on top of the world

You give me butterflies

You get me so mad

You make me so happy

You give me a reason to cry

You make me so frustrated

I want to pull my hair out

But I still want to kiss you

I want your hugs

Even though you will hurt me

I stay up at night thinking of you

Even though I know I shoudn’t

I will let you in again and again

Even though I know you will disappoint me

You don’t give me the respect I deserve

You don’t treat me right

You treat me like a side hoe and I feel like a dirty secret

You don’t give me the time I deserve

You can’t think of date ideas or what to do

You don’t invite me to things with your friends

You don’t give me a gift for my birthday

you did come by for a few minutes to say hi and happy birthday...

You don't consider my feelings

You told me I have commitment issues ( No I don't )

I deserve better I know it

You don’t listen to me and what I say

Because if you did maybe you would know this:

1. I want your time
2. I want phone calls
3. I want to know I'm important in your life
4. I want to go on dates
5. I want to be chased after still
6. I want you to say yes to me
7. I want to be able to meet your parents
8. I want to be able to meet your friends
9. I want to know about your life
10. I want to be someone you go to

But I'm not liked by your parents

You keep me a secret to your friends

You don’t call me just to talk

I don’t care what we talk about I just want to talk

You don’t ask to take me out or to even to come over ahead of time

There is so many signs saying I should go and stop loving you and forget you. But, even though I said what I said I still will love you… You have this hold on me and I can’t seem to cut it, I have tried. I will move on but I know one day I will see your face and talk to you again and I’ll be here in this emotional homicide crying at 2 am in the morning because I let you in and I got burned and my emotions have gotten killed. You will be normal and never know what I went through because I seem to care to much and you have never ever probably thought you hurt me at all. You will probably never know and never care. Maybe you are stupid, like you said.

maybe we are meant to be friends and only friends. You probably are my first love back when you kissed freshman year but I wish it would end differently for us.

But. this Goodbye