Halloween. Every emo, goth, alternative or outcasted kid's favorite holiday. The one time where you can be 100% yourself and no one looks at you with harsh, judgmental eyes.
Yes, even me. I loved dressing up and getting free candy. I still do! I love thrifting costumes together and having my own unique costume. Of course, I love the free candy as well and walking around with friends. Not to mention you get so much candy (that part is REALLY important).
But, even with my love of this holiday, this is still a season of sadness for me. Grieving is never easy, and though it hurts less as time goes on, there's always a new surge as it nears the time of passing. October 24th, 2016. My least favorite day, and it is right around the corner.
Thinking of times spent with the ones you've lost always bring a mix of emotions. Love, for those beautiful times and happiness when you were happy; and of course sadness as you remember they're no longer with us. I'll never be spending another Halloween with my friend again, and while that's small it still makes the season rough.
Grieving is never easy, for anyone. It's okay to struggle. You don't have to pretend you're always fine.
For those who are grieving, I've written two other articles about this particular event in my life. Writing helped me cope, perhaps reading can help as well.