Have you ever woken up one day, realizing that you know exactly what you want out of life? Since graduating high school back in 2013, I have tried online schooling for a year, moved four times, got a job, transitioned from that job to another one. Three out of those four moves were just last year. And I have almost been at Goodwill for five months now. So it has been tough for me to find my calling.
Senior year in high school made me realize that I wanted to become a teacher. I still want to be a teacher. I want to teach the generations of kids to come how to love to read and write. Because nowadays that isn't present in our school systems. There are only select teachers that care about whether a child actually learns. That's a shame. Teachers are supposed to care for their students and push them to succeed.
I love books. I read almost as much as I breathe. I write just as much as I eat or sleep. It is my life. I find myself inspired by the most random things or sometimes it just comes to me without any muse. I write for fun most of the time. Then I started writing for the Odyssey last fall. The Odyssey has helped me with my writing a lot.
In a previous article, I wrote about my New Year's resolutions. I woke up one day and realized that I want to be a writer (not just for fun anymore), a published author to be exact. For 2017, I want to publish my first book. I have slowly been working on it already. I have the first chapter already completed. And the second chapter is already halfway finished.
Working nine hours a day, five days a work (full-time job), does have a way to complicate things when it comes to writing. I sometimes just want to sleep or just watch Netflix when I get off. But it is my goal to accomplish this for myself. To show myself, no one else, that I can publish a book.
I doubt myself a lot. I am one of those people that will second guess everything no matter how right it feels. Writing feels great. I write out my anger, my sadness, my happiness. It all pours out and shows in my writing. I have some very awesome co-workers, or rather my work family that helps me. They see me more than my own flesh and blood so they see me doubting myself. And they say just the rights things to help me out. I was born to write. My stories are going to be told.
If you are like me, doubting yourself and not sure which road to take on this journey called life, this is for you. Don't let anything or anyone stop you. If you are passionate about anything, go for it. Reach past the damn stars and shoot for a planet or the actual sun because it is your life. You wouldn't of been given this gift if you weren't meant to use it!
You are born for this! Just like I am born to write. Don't give up! Because I won't.
