I wonder what it's like to be pretty.

Like I really wonder what it's like to be pretty. What it would be like to wake up in the morning looking good instead of looking like you got hit by a bus. What it would be like to walk to class without getting anxious when someone looks at you because you think "Oh, there must be food or something on my face."

I wonder what it's like to go shopping and just have everything go your way. To be able to pull off anything, just because you're so damn pretty that you can just do that. I wonder what it's like to get ready to go out. That must be, like, incredible. I want to know how it feels to get ready to go somewhere feeling 100% confident in how you look.

I wonder what it's like to be the kind of pretty that can post a cute selfie on social media, and have my phone blow up with notifications over it. More importantly, I wonder what it's like to be able to take a cute photo of yourself easily. Or what it feels like to turn heads when you enter a room.

I wonder what it is like not deal with rejection the way I do. How does it feel to like someone and know your looks won't be an issue because let me tell you, it is a real knock down on the totem pole confidence when it does happen.

I wonder if people feel bad for me when they see me out with my friends. I want to know if they think of me as the designated ugly friend. Sometimes I even think that about myself.

Most importantly, I wonder if anyone sees me and thinks "I wonder what it's like to be pretty."