I think about all the times that I have been blessed with the best, like my mom and my best friends. Since last spring I have been blessed to gain such beautiful, heartwarming and sweet sisters of Alpha Omicron Pi. Most of the time we do look at sororities like they are all so close in pictures but behind closed doors, they are all fake to each other. I always felt like I would never find my place in a sorority so I never tried. But when I did, man did I find a good one.
These girls make me smile even when I can't smile anymore. These girls make me laugh until my stomach hurts and my cheeks are in pain. These girls make me feel at home more than my own family. These girls are my family. Every step I take into becoming the woman I know I want to be, these women will help me get there. As I look at the woman around me I can't help but smile, and I can't help but to just cry tears of joy.
The other day I got to hear all the struggles these women have gone through in their life, for the first time I got to experience someone else pain besides mine and it was sadly satisfying. Satisfying in the words that it wasn't just me who has gone through the pain of not being enough, being alone, and never feeling loved. I always thought that I was the only one going through this much pain over and over again. That I would never get out of this endless painful cycle called life. I would ask God every night, why me? But what I didn't think about was that, someone always will have it worse, someone else will always go through the same messed up shit as you and that you are never alone in this scary world.
As I was looking around at my sisters during our circle full of tears I realized that we were all put in this sorority together for a reason. Not because we love pandas or that chanting at the top of our lungs constantly goes for a good time, but because we have all gone through something in our life that has put us down. We were brokenhearted girls that when put together we became whole again. So to my sisters and to girls that are in a low place in your life, I want ya'll to know that its not the end of your world, you are not a lone and you are loved. There are people here for you, you just have to open your heart. With Alpha love and all of mine!
