The moment when someone exits stage left from the stage that is your life.

This is the wishing situation you were never prepared for. The first two times, you were the one to leave and kept him guessing, but now the tables have turned. You are left with unanswered questions. There was no time to stop this from happening. One word was said then the world went dark. Left in a state of confusion, forced to pick up the pieces of your scattered heart.

You will spend the new few weeks wondering what you did wrong and how, if you would of had a chance, to stop him from leaving you behind. After this period, you start to realize that you are going to be okay and that you were fine without him the first two times. Being strong is all you have left, so you embrace that feeling like nothing is wrong with you at all. Even though, you will list all the moments you will never share with him, you know that was always meant to be that way. The time a part was set in stone years before by you and trying to fix that only made it worse. Those years of separation caused y'all to never see a year together, but in reality that is the best thing ever.

I wish I could tell you how much I miss you. Everything would be better if I could be there for you again. So much left to say to you and no way to tell you. You have shut me out. The door has closed on conversation. I am only left with all the conversations we had and all the ones I wish to have with you.

I wish I could have said goodbye, but you had already made up your mind. It didn't matter what I would think, you were set to leave without a word. There was nothing I could say to make you stay. My time was up and now all I say is I wish and not I can because you left.

Don't you hate when you have some much left unsaid?

It is like a pinball game is going on inside your head and the ball is stuck in a constant battle.

I wish I could tell you all the moments you will miss in the coming weeks, months, and the years. I wanted you to be a part of my life. I really wanted to try this time, but you left me with only wishing for what could of been, the friendship/relationship we could of had together.

Life is full of: I wish I could do this and that. Which is so sad and true, but one day it can become a can again.

I wish I could tell you how confident I am going to be the next time I see you and how awesome it will be. You will know then by my face and how happy I will be just to see you smile at me if only for a minute.

One day I will be able to tell you everything you have missed, till then I will keep wishing.

"She lost him, but found herself. And somehow that was everything." - Taylor Swift