If I were to get on my Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, or Pinterest, I can guarantee there will be an overflow of proposals, weddings, and babies. This is just a part of growing up. Of course I am so happy for all of my friends that are experiencing these amazing things; however, I can't help but be a little jealous because I am so single. These things aren't even in my near future, seeing as I don't have anything that's remotely close to a boyfriend. It is so hard sometimes to remember that just because people my age are getting married and having babies doesn't mean that God's plan for their life isn't the same as His plan for mine. It is discouraging sometimes, and I'm ashamed to say that there have been times that I have questioned myself asking, "What is wrong with me?" or, "Why doesn't anyone want to marry me?" This is silly, I know, but it's true. Sometimes after seeing people my age, and younger, getting married and starting families, I start doubting myself and God's plan for my life. It's easy to start to feel as if I need to get with the program, and find a boyfriend and settle down. While there is nothing wrong with settling down at a young age, there is a problem with settling.
I am 21 years old and I'm single. This means that every friend I have is so interested in hooking me up with their cute friend from church or from class. This means when I go out on the weekends or to a football game, cute boys introduce themselves to me and ask for my number. This also means that multiple times a day, some guy slides into my DM's trying to hit on me. I'm not saying that there aren't options, and I am single because there are simply no guys interested in me. I suppose I have always been a romantic, and I believe in love at first sight. I am single because I have seen what true love looks like, and I will not settle for anything less than that.
Being in a relationship just to avoid being single is such a waste of time. Why give parts of my heart away to someone who is in my life only as a place-holder until the right person comes along? It is OK to be single. Being single seems to be looked at in a negative light, and I refuse to allow myself to feel that way. I truly believe that my future husband is out there in the world right now thinking about me and wondering who I am and what I am doing. Meeting your soulmate is something that is going to happen when it's meant to happen, and not a moment sooner.
So, I will wait. I will wait for the guy that comes along and my heart seems to stop when we make eye contact. I will wait for a love that is strong and true. I will wait and continue to allow God to mold and shape me into the best version of myself, so when I finally meet Mr. Right, I will be exactly what he deserves.
