There is always that one person who we are convinced is the one person created just for us. They're perfect in our eyes. We love the way they walk, their smile makes our heart jump in it's cage, their voice is like music. And often, that person is the one who teaches us that we should be more cautious. They were perfect because our own perception was skewed.

Years have gone by since I had this experience, and at first I couldn't wrap my head around it. How could someone do this to me... make me feel so abandoned? I realize now that it was a blessing, and all I would say to the person who made me feel this way, is thank you.

Thank you for ghosting me. What bothered me most was that we never had closure, but I am with someone now who would never leave me without a word.

Thank you for ignoring my messages. I know now that I don't have to reach out to someone over and over to be acknowledged.

Thank you for showing me that I shouldn't hold onto people who don't want to be held onto. I owe it to myself to move on when things don't work out.

Thank you for helping me realize that I need to pay attention to a person's true character. I used to create scenarios and allow myself to be blinded, but I am able to differentiate between my own desires and reality.

Thank you for never giving me a chance to believe we could've been anything further down the road. If you did, I may have ended up in a different city, following dreams that evolved around you.

The most painful thing about you dropping me from your life was wondering if it was because of something I did. Did I say something wrong? How could someone treat me like I was completely irrelevant? Were we ever anything at all?

I used to be afraid to know the truth to these questions, and to know how you really felt. But the truth is, the answers don't matter. It never mattered in the grand scheme of things whether or not you cared about me, or if you were annoyed by my attempts to reach out to you, or even if you thought about me too. What matters is that we were never meant to be anything more than ghosts in each other's lives. What matters most is that I do not need to be haunted by you.

You are a distant memory now. In fact, you're rarely even a thought that comes to my mind. Since your disappearance, I have found two people who I probably wouldnt have known if you stuck around.

First, is someone who loves me unconditionally, who would stick with me through it all, who reaches out for me when I'm not strong enough to reach for him. Someone who makes me laugh, encourages me to be the best version of myself, and continually helps me to seek the truths of the world.

Second, is someone I should've known and put first my entire life, Myself.