As a little girl I was always constantly following around my sister or trying to act like I was older than I was. I couldn't wait to be considered "all grown up" Lately, I wish I could go back to that little care-free girl and tell her to enjoy life. Sometimes I wish I never grew up. Now being the twenty year old I am I often think back to my younger years, ice cream socials, swinging on the swing set, and most importantly no worries. I know I'm only twenty years old and I have a whole life ahead of me but that's also a whole life of stress that I'm not ready for.
As a young kid I definitely didn't have the worries like I do today. Life would be a lot easier since being a child is easy. My younger self would not have been slaving around at work since college ended to pay her phone bill and her car payment. She would be singing and dancing to High School Musical karaoke. My younger self would not have to worry about what to have for dinner. Mostly because young children do not cook, but hey it's a lot less stress on them! The only cooking I did as a kid was with my Easy-Bake Oven. My younger self would only have to come home from school put my book bag down, change out of my good clothes and run outside to play with my neighbors. Now I'm spending my days working and my free time working.
My younger self would only worry if she forgot her lunch money. Calling both parents begging for someone to drop off money. The person I am today would grab Ramen Noodles and dig up some quarters to get a pop from the vending machine. My younger self only had to worry about scraps and broken bones, not broken hearts. Life as a young kid was so much easier. Sometimes I just wish I never had to grow up.
If I could lay on a beach every single day with a drink in my hand, I would. If I could take a vacation every other week, I would. If I could call into work everyday I could, but I wouldn't have any money to pay the bills. Unfortunately being an adult is a part of life, it's just not something I'm ready for at all. It snuck up on me. One day I was a nine-year-old girl playing soccer after school and running around with her friends. I didn't even know what worries were back then. I lived a care-free life. Now I'm a twenty-year-old college kid who doesn't even have time to think straight.
Growing up sucks. I have so many responsibilities from school to bills to work. Sometimes I wish I could just take a break and go back to my care-free childhood. Even as a high schooler I did not have the responsibilities that I do today. To the kids either still in high school or who are living out their childhood, enjoy it now. Enjoy it now because before you know it you'll be twenty years old wishing you never grew up.
