We’ve all been in the situations. Something –a love, a concern, an unexplainable feeling—is jabbing at our hearts, playing with our heads and tugging on our guts. We’re fighting an invisible battle that we want to hide from the world because to expose the issue means to expose part of ourselves and that’s simply too dangerous.
Still, we have a craving to confide on some level; we want to have one person (not even a lover. Just someone close) who we can actually show ourselves to. But the question which always comes to my mind is why? Why do we crave to do something we are terrified to do?
Is it because we want something to come of it on some level? Do we hope that the friend in whom we have confided will solve the problem? No, that’s ridiculous. Maybe some people hope for it in a way: Part of their heart hopes their friend will help resolve the issue. But if our friend was capable of fixing things, then certainly we would have the power too, and it would already be fixed.
Is it because we need attention? To some, this may be the case, but that’s not how it should be. Closure shouldn’t come by drawing everyone else’s eyes, especially because it leaves you in the same situations in every way.
No, I’ve realized the true reason we crave to confess our pains—to spill our hearts and the poison that’s within them—is because we simply need to feel that we aren’t alone. I know very well that you can be friends with a roommate and have a great group of people to hang out with, but if you’re the only one aware of something eating away at you, you start to feel very alone. We all want to tell a trusted someone what is happening, even if they can’t do anything, even if they haven’t been through it. We want to know that, emotionally, we are not alone in this world.
When everything feels like it’s falling apart, just admitting it all can be all that keeps the world together.
