Snuggled up in my covers, PJs, a cup of hot tea and a Shonda Rhimes marathon is how I prefer to spend most of my nights. I am certainly not one of those people who need constant company and attention. Some people wonder why I prefer to be alone quite so often, and no it's not because I am depressed or angry, I just simply like being by myself—no annoyances, no worries and no other people getting in the way of me and my thoughts.
Quite honestly, I really don’t like people—but who really does, anyway? Don’t get me wrong, I love my family and friends, but there comes a point where I need to be by myself or I will become some alternate universe person who is unlike the person my friends and family actually know; I will physically stop responding to your questions and will be day dreaming about my comfy duvet and fuzzy robe.
Besides the benefits of my pillow top mattress, I also get to recharge. Spending time with people requires a lot of energy, even though you love the people you are spending time with—deep talks, constant laughs, and emotional nights can take a lot out of one person. After taking a break from the job of friend or family member, you are able to mentally and physically recharge for the next time you're ready to go back to your former position. When you’re a friend or family member, you sometimes have to be that person's rock, and you need to be that person they can lean on during the most difficult times in their lives. But when you get to be alone, you get to take a break from constantly trying to make other people feel better and focus on how you feel about yourself.
Besides the mental and emotional parts of spending time alone, I physically just enjoy being in my own home. I am one of those people who absolutely hate sleepovers. I physically just like being in the presence of all of the things that I have hand-picked to be surrounded by: my bed, my clothing, and my bathroom. And most importantly, I can literally do anything I want and no one will be there to judge me. Dance in my underwear, eat a gallon of ice cream or watch my favorite Nicholas Sparks movie on repeat—those things are all up for grabs when you have no one else to tell you what to do.
Some people would call me a loner, others would call me anti-social, but I would just say I am simple. I do not need much to make me happy, and I don’t rely on others to control my feelings. I enjoy being in my own world because sometimes the outside world is full of too much bullsh!t.
