Dear You,
I haven’t always been a fighter, I admit I used to be the kind of girl who gave up easily. I used to be the person who was afraid of confrontation and shied away from any instance that could make my own life any harder. But that was before. Before I started fighting for myself, my health, my life. Before I understood that some things were worth fighting for. Before I met you.
Before I knew what I wanted and why, I didn’t see the point in fighting for anything. I believed the people who told me that “If you love something let it go” and that fighting for anything meant forcing something to work that maybe shouldn’t or wouldn’t. But things have changed in my life. A few years ago I stopped just accepting what was in my life and started fighting for the things I wanted. I began fighting for the body I wanted and for the health I knew was a battle I needed to win. I started to realize that I wasn’t going to be given anything, and that if I wanted something I’d have to work for it. So I started to get to work. And many times I wanted to give up. It’s a lot easier to walk away from something when it gets hard than it is to fight what might be an uphill battle, but I promise you it’s usually worth it. I fought hard for the person I wanted to be, until I started to get it and most days I couldn’t be prouder of the person I become through that fight.
Anything worth having is worth fighting for right? It’s a lesson that most of us learn the hard way, but it couldn’t be more true. Nothing is going to be easy all the time. There are going to be mistakes made, slip ups, and hurt along the way, but having the courage and strength to keep going is what ultimately separates the weak from the strong. Nothing I’ve ever had in my life has come without some hard work internally or externally and it’s that work that has made me appreciate something once I had it.
I will fight for you because I believe you’re worth it. I will swallow my pride and humbly admit to being human and flawed and capable of making big mistakes. I will admit I am not perfect and that I can never guarantee a smooth road. I know that. But what I can promise is willingness to fight. For love, for friendship, for happiness, I will fight. I will give everything I have at the risk of it being thrown back in my face. I will admit when I am defeated and when battles cannot be won, but It doesn’t mean I’ll stop trying. When I believe something is worth fighting for, I fight until I know it isn’t worth it anymore. But I can only fight if you are willing to fight too. If you decide to walk away, to give up without a fight, then I will sorrowfully wave my own white flag in surrender. But know that I only do so with the heaviest of heart, because I will always think that great things are worth fighting for, and I’d never chose to give up without a fight.
They say love is a battlefield, and I wish it weren’t so. Just know no matter what, I’d keep on fighting, because you’re worth every single scar I earn in the process, I may be bruised and broken in the end, but I’d declare war for your heart anytime any place. Please tell me I’m worth the fight.
