If you're the type of person who gives to others without fully taking care of yourself, this is for you. I get it, I know that you love to give others the love that you so desperately long for. You want someone to fall in love with your smile the way you have fallen in love with theirs. You want someone's world to revolve around you and for them to be everything you had hoped they would be.
Sometimes your love will never be enough to convince someone that you are worth the time and effort, but that's okay. You should never put yourself in a position to convince someone else that you are worth it, because then someone who already realizes it doesn't have room to come into your life.
The person you so desperately pour your heart and soul into should be someone who does the same for you. If you are investing your time into someone and they aren't doing the same for you, it is very unlikely you can change them.
I know you thought you could change them, so did I. I thought that if I told him how much he meant to me and that I would never leave his side that he would eventually do the same for me. He did, but there was no meaning behind his words, they were empty promises. He wasn't in it for the same reasons I was, and no matter how much I loved him, I couldn't make him want me the same way I wanted him. He broke my heart, he left and without any remorse he moved on, and I was devastated. The world seemed to be put on hold as I waited anxiously for him to come back to me. It never happened, and I was breaking my own heart because I refused to accept the fact that he was gone. I spent countless nights wondering what I did wrong, why I wasn't good enough...but the truth was that I was more than enough.
Six months later, I am finally realizing the good in goodbye. Not every person you lose is a loss, and that's okay. You don't have to doubt yourself just because someone else doubted you, you are worth SO much more. If I had never had my heart broken, I might not have realized what I'm truly worth and what I deserve. No one deserves to walk on ice, to be nervous that anything you do could make them mad, so take this heartbreak as a blessing. You will find yourself and truly know what its like to be unapologetically happy.
