I wish I could be real, as in say what I really feel and do what I really want.

I wish I could be real, as in be who I really am and wear what I really want.

I wish I could be real, as in go where I want to go and talk to who I want to talk too.

I wish I could be real.

Making sense (pause three seconds before continuing)?

I wish I could be real, as in do what ever I wanted to do, say what ever I wanted to say, and know that people would actually understand. But they don't. They never do.

Making sense?

Of course not.

I'll continue anyways.

I wish I could be real, like, for real, real.

Real, as in me never having to worry about being judged for the simple fact that they don't understand me.

Real, as in me actually doing something that I know is great because of the strategy and the thought I personally put into it, and getting a response of someone actually understanding it and therefore actually appreciating it.

The term actually is defined as, "used to stress that a statement is true especially when it differs in some way from what might have been thought or expected," according to Merriam-Webster.com.

Just in case you thought you actually, understood.

Allow me to continue.

I wish I could be real, like, again, for real, real.

As in if I just did the right thing every time, I would be appropriately appreciated.

As in if I got pulled over by a police officer and knew that I was not getting treated properly, I could tell that officer exactly how I felt without fear of handcuffs, or even worse, death.

As in if I were in an airplane, and I knew that because of my Middle-Eastern ancestry was the only reason why I got asked to leave the plane for no apparent reason, I could not move and just sit there just like everyone else because I knew I did nothing wrong.

As in say what I really feel and do what I really want.

No fear of not being accepted. No fear of not being able to return home to my family at night. No fear of getting fired from a job. No fear of not being able to support my family. No fear of having to do what others tell me to do, even when I know its not right, just to survive. Once and for all, no fear.

I wish I could be real, as in say what I really feel and do what I really want.

I wish I could be real, as in be who I really am and wear what I really want.

I wish I could be real, as in go where I want to go and talk to who I want to talk too.

I wish I could be real.

Because it is only in that moment, when all of my wishes come true, that I will actually be real.