After a few days of self reflection and trying to find myself again after going through a difficult year I am finally finding the peace within myself that I needed. For the longest time I had become someone that everyone else wanted me to be rather than who I wanted to be as a person.
I let people control my money, my time, my appearance, and my life choices rather than making them on my own. These last few months I have been able to work on myself but over the course of the last couple of weeks I truly found the person I am and the person I want to be in the future.
I want to be the person that is always there for my friends and family whether its to sit up till 3am on the phone talking about their life struggles, giving them a ride or a helping hand when they need it, or being their support system when they feel the world around them is crashing down on them.
I want to be the person who finds the positive in every situation and the person who never lets a smile disappear from her face. For awhile I lost my smile because of the things I went through and the pain associated with the past but from here on out the smile will never fade. I want my eyes to light up any room I walk into that way those around me can find comfort.
I want to be the person that does not stop until I get to where I want to be in life. My future plan involves me working as either a CEO or a CNO of a hospital while doing reality on the side. I have such big goals and dreams and I refuse to let anyone come between them.
I want to be the girl that loves with her whole heart. I want to give my all to someone and in return get the same level of love. I want to be able to provide for that special someone and to be their rock. I want to love them with all that I have and get that same level of love in return because I deserve that much.
I want to find happiness in the little things such as spending a night watching Netflix, going on a hike, taking a road trip, and taking pictures every chance that I get because this life is so short. I want to make endless memories with those I love because we never truly know when they might be gone.
I want to make a difference in the lives of those around me because life is short and it's important to give back to the world we live in. I want to express my self confidence because it has taken me so long to get to this level of comfortability. For the longest time I kept things bottled up and in turn that resulted in a state of depression. I was unhappy with my life and the way that I looked and finally I got the courage to fix that.
Today I am happy with the person I turned out to be. I do my best to put others needs before my own, I am confident in the way that I look, I am happy with who I am as a person, and I am proud of all of my accomplishments.
The let downs and heartbreaks I have experienced have shaped me into the person I am today and there is no stopping me now as I am on the path to accomplishing all of my dreams.
