After numerous amounts of bad relationships with guys, the only comment that tends to be is either when are you going to learn, Florence? or I told you from the beginning it won't work out. Most of the time I know the advice my friends give me are right but usually it's easier said than done when it comes to listening to help.

When it comes to a start of a relationship, I always had luck on my side with all of them. The first couple of dates I always tend to have a strong connection with those guys. I would usually run to my friends and tell them that maybe he's the one for me and that he's different. However, my friends always warned me to not jump right into it, no matter how great the first couple of dates felt. I had to keep up my guard because those guys can possibly not be trustful and use me for themselves. It was unfortunate to hear my friends not being happy for me and giving me advice instead , so the majority of the time I ignored them and continued to let loose of my guard within these relationships which led to myself with a broken heart.

These guys that I got myself involved with took advantage of me and didn't see me as a potential girlfriend. Not only did I end up emotionally hurt but I also realized many times that my friends were right: I should've listened to those counseling words before it actually happened but instead I ended up paying for it by these horrible relationships. It was hard to do that because at the moment, it felt great to be stared as the "perfect girl in his dreams" or "having a possible sturdy future" with these guys. I ended up believing in their lies and waiting for their texts. It destroyed my self esteem and annoyed many of my friends who saw my continuous mistakes but now I've changed.

Now I know better not to have a guy disrespect me. All of my friends previously telling me that I deserve better comes into mind when picking a likely partner for myself. I'm also aware that building up my guard will make me a mentally stronger person that doesn't allow sub-standardized guys into my life. Even though the first couple of dates might be amazing, I know better to keep in mind of the lies that will allow him to take away my vulnerability. So maybe I am ready to let go of my history of bad relationships and look for potential ones, I hope.