You won't want to let each other go, but you'll be so happy that you did.
They were your everything, they were your forever, they were your light. They were relentless.
You had never planned that one day you’d be losing them, but one afternoon they stood in your room, said they would always love you, and they walked out the door and took your “forever after” with them. On that day you have to decide, is that it? And you need to be done. Despite what they think, you’re not only doing it for yourself, but you’re doing it for them too…and you know it.
You guys were good...in the beginning. But now you see it. Being constantly tore down was shaded by infatuation, and the rose-colored glasses caused your vision to be clouded. When you first met him, you weren’t sure how you got so lucky. He was everything you thought you wanted, and you just didn’t deserve him. Right?
Wrong. You deserve a lot, and I’m sorry he doesn’t realize that but everyone around you does, and you should have seen it yourself.
There were days where you wish you couldn’t have felt a damn thing. Your friends got so tired of seeing you cry and hearing the pointless reasons why you guys argued everyday. You fought for him, with him. Tirelessly, endlessly, desperately, you tried to find that person that you first met. You tried to find the love that he loved with in the beginning. It just wasn’t there. He wasn't him, and after a while you weren’t you. The hurtful words you both exchanged cut you to the core, and the pressure only grew stronger. At that point, you felt trapped. What do you do? You loved him and you couldn’t just give up, how could you do that someone? You couldn’t do it, but he could...so when he leaves, you need to let him go.
He may have failed to see that you were ready to fight for him, but you failed to see that you had been fighting, it just wasn’t working. You were trying to make it better. Through all the struggle and heartache you still saw the good in him, but the good just wasn’t good enough. Soon after he left, you realized you needed to go too. Cry it out, Laugh it out, and fill the hole up. Pick up the pieces all by yourself.
As much as you’re going to want to lean on someone, just know this has to be done on your own. And before long, you’ll see yourself getting better. The late night call of him begging for you back will come, but you’ll know what you have to do. Pushing him as far away as possible will hurt...but it’s time.
Know that you may never talk again, and that’s OK. He was a chapter in your life but that book is closed now, and it's time for you to start writing a new one. He’ll be angry at you for moving on, but remember, he pushed you to go, so how can he blame you? And that’s exactly how it’ll be...he’ll blame you. He’ll blame you for everything going south, and he’ll blame you for following your dreams.
You’ll end up wanting to thank him. He showed you what love is, but he also showed you what you want and what you don’t want in a person. You’ll hope he now sees the reason you kept him out once he left. You’ll be happier than you’ve ever been, and you’ll wonder if he is too. Through all of the hurtful words that he said to you, you’ll be happy for him. He’ll be doing him, and you’ll be doing better. I promise, you’ll be so thankful for the day that he chose to walk out the door.
They don’t lie when they say when one door closes, another door opens. Because you’ll gain amazing people through having your heart broken, you just have to learn to let yourself love again. Don’t get me wrong, it’ll take a while. But don’t close your heart off--you’ll be missing out on some pretty great people if you do.
