Maybe they won’t. Pray that they don’t. If they left you, pray that they stay gone. Anyone who loved you the way that you wanted and needed to be loved would have never left you in the first place.
Let me say that again for good measure.
Anyone who loved you the way that you wanted and needed to be loved would have never left you in the first place.
You feel as though your life has been at a constant rock bottom since they left so wouldn’t them coming back be the best thing to happen to you?
No. Not at all. Not even a little bit. No way in hell.
I know it’s all you wanted.
Believe me. I know more than anything that that’s what you wanted – what you thought you needed.
You wanted that call at 2 a.m. from them telling you that they never quit thinking about you, that you never left their mind, that they messed up, that you’re the love of their life, or whatever other nonsense they feel like saying because they know it’s what you want to hear.
Look, they know you. They know what you want to hear – what you need to hear. They know how to say it and when to say it. They know when to be sincere but also know when to throw in an old memory or inside joke between the two of you to make you laugh, to make you remember the good times you guys had. They want you remember the good times.
They don’t want you to think about the after effects of them leaving. They don’t want you to think about the countless nights you spent crying because they decided you weren’t enough for them anymore. They don’t want you to think about the nights when your friends had to come hold you while you cried on your bathroom floor. They want you to forget about all of that.
Because they know they messed up, but they don’t want you to think about that because it doesn’t fit their agenda.
So they’ll tell you all the things you wished they would’ve months ago. They’ll sound like a character out of a damn Nicholas Sparks’ film. They’ve got the act down. They've perfected it.
But even if they come back, don’t expect them to stay. They’ll come back saying this time they’re ready, this time they know what they want, they’ll never hurt ever again, blah, blah, blah. But sooner or later, the excitement of getting you back will fade and they’ll look for something, or someone, else to fill whatever void it is they wanted you to temporarily fill.
Truth hurts.
Maybe they’ll stick around for a while after begging for you back or maybe they’ll last less than a month after promising you the world – either way they’ll leave again. Sure there are some cases where they stay around, truly do learn from their mistake and fix what they broke, but please, please don’t count on it. That happening is the exception, not the rule.
Be strong enough to know that you deserve someone who realized what they had the moment they met you. You deserve someone who doesn’t take the love you have to give for granted. You’re worth more than that so when they come back, be strong enough to walk away.
