When the doubt sets in, you're gonna be scared.
You're going to wonder if you were wrong or selfish or out of your mind.
You'll start to come to outrageous conclusions in your head that, yes, you were indeed wrong.
And once that starts, you'll be begin to broaden that doubt. You'll think back to times and times before and find evidence to support your doubt.
It sets in, it settles deep in side your soul, and you sit and reorganize your life.
Everyone has the option to immediately stand up, to stand away, and cut the parasite ready to infect your mind, your ideas, your values, but the majority of us don't.
We let it come in with open arms. We let it slowly take over our lives and we adapt to it instead of it adapting to us.
When the doubt sets in, you're gonna be broken.
Everything that once made sense, that was once okay, won't be.
You'll tear every good thing in your life apart to find the answer that is lurking everywhere but before you.
The good thing about doubt is that is ends. You either get confirmation that you never needed one dash of doubt and that you are still ruling the empire that you built, or... well, you learn from that mistake, you fix the problem that was made and you will grow and you will learn.
You may be broken, but all the pieces are still there.
When the doubt sets in, you're gonna be lost.
What is the answer?
Was I right? Was I wrong?
Did it come off too harsh or too mean or too impolite?
Does this look good? Great? Horrible? Unappealing?
Have they always actually liked me? Do they hate me? Will they hate me?
What direction do I go from here?
Which way do I turn to take my life back?
When the doubt sets in, you're gonna be cautious.
Maybe I should stop doing that, stop saying that, stop being like that.
You will let that doubt diminish the person inside because to you it is easier to start over than find a foundational question to build upon.
You will begin to be hyper aware of those around you. The littlest actions will trigger a feeling of hopelessness.
But even sometimes, you'll see glimpses of hope.
When the doubt sets in, you're gonna grow ill.
You're probably going to feel sick to your stomach or emotionless from the stress of the situation.
You're going to spend a few minutes, a few hours, a few days going over your pain, but never finding a healthy solution.
You will lose your purpose, maybe for a second or a day or a week, a year, a month.
BUT
When the doubt sets in, you have the opportunity to fight the conscience that is telling you that you are wrong.
You can gather the facts, the evidence, the pure reason of living, of doing your homework, or forming a debate, and prove yourself wrong.
You can build yourself up so high, your doubts look like ants on the ground.
You can become a better person, a smarter person, a stronger person and learn ways to take on your doubt.
To let it know that it has no place here. That your doubt does not call the shots any longer.
When the doubt sets in, you will win.
Pain and suffering do not come easy. There among the harder things to handle across our lifespan.
But when you realize that you have nothing to lose, that sometimes being wrong will benefit you in more ways that being right, or the instance where you prove your doubtful conscience wrong, you will always win.
You will never not win when the doubt sets in.
