My friends always give me a hard time after a break-up that I fell too quickly.

I'll own up to that. I know it's the truth. I fall quickly and invest all my time in someone when I vibe with them. Even after I swear up and down after my last relationship ends that I won't fall that quickly again, I do. It's embedded in my DNA, I suppose.

I've never known that love isn't whole-hearted, and I'll never know how it can be. How can one invest time into someone and not mean the words they say? How can you keep your walls up so high that you push a good thing away? Don't get me wrong, I have my walls, but they come crumbling down quickly when I meet that "someone."

It's not just intimate relationships that I love too much in.

I'm the person who after just meeting you will hug you goodbye. Handshakes remind me too much of job interviews. I hug my guy friends and tell them, "Love you, dude," at least once when we're all together, and that's weird to others (especially their girlfriends if they don't understand our friendship dynamic yet.)

I overshare. I invest too much. I feel too much.

When I love, I love hard. I'll give you my everything, or I'll give you nothing. There's not really an in-between with me and my heart.

And maybe that's why I can't keep a relationship? I haven't found someone who loves as hard as I do, and I end up being the one who loves the hardest and gets hurt the most. But I can't help it; I don't know any different. I don't know how not to crave time with someone or even how not to smile anytime their name pops up on my phone.

I'm done being sorry for loving quickly and hard. I'm going to love like crazy when the next opportunity presents itself, with everything I have. I'm going to continue to get hurt, I'm sure. I'll learn and grow from it just like every other experience, but I look forward to the day someone loves me as much as I love them.