Dear you,
It's been six months since the day we met. I was almost sure we’d never even be friends at the time, but things surely changed. It feels like it was just yesterday that I was sitting in class, wondering why the boy in the white t-shirt made fun of my writing. At first, I didn’t understand, but you soon gave me all the inklings I needed to discover what you were really trying to get at.
Sometimes I have to think back and wonder how you became a part of my life in the first place. Then I sat down and remembered the day you walked me to the train station—the beautiful sunny day that had me convinced you weren’t the same guy from class. That was the day you opened another door and slowly walked into my life, not remotely fathoming what would happen months down the road. As time went on, you became more than a friend; you became someone who could laugh at my horrible, corny jokes and someone I could count on. You became a part of my everyday life and someone who I knew could make me smile no matter what. But most of all, you had a contagious laugh and a smile that had everyone guessing.
Sadly, over time, we realized that we weren’t as close and similar as we'd thought. It was a few months that we did not speak a word to each other. During those weeks I felt betrayed, lost and utterly confused. When the ones we care about are down on their knees and at their worst, we usually put our feelings aside and lend our hearts, no matter the circumstance. After you came back, it all seemed like a dream—so much time had gone by and it felt as if you had completely disappeared from my life completely. I moved on, made new friends and ultimately, a new life for myself. Why should I let you in when you were gone and I needed you? Why now and why me? Then, it seemed as if the time apart had been so long that you never had actually been there in the first place.
Dear you, I wish that you hadn’t gone, for things could have been beautiful and we could have made it through. But in life, we have to sometimes just understand and accept that some things are not made to go on. Sometimes people never change and are just too different. Sometimes, no matter how difficult the situation may be, you just have to let it all go. In life, you have to make the decision of what and who is worth keeping in your life in order to truly be happy. Sometimes, I wish you knew what it was like to have that one person in your life who taught you how to love, because maybe things would be different now. Maybe you would have grown a heavy heart that understood deep down. Perhaps someday, if you’re lucky enough, you will have the blessing of another in your life who brings out the best in you and the one who always has your back. Once you discover that person, hold them so very close to your heart and never take them for granted, because one day, without you really ever noticing, they may slip away. So, when the time comes, hold them close and never let the feeling go.
Your Former Friend,
Brooke
