Growing up sucks. Plain and simple. At 19 years old, I'm stumbling through life, tripping over almost everything in my way. I've got to go to school to make sure I have a good job in the future. I have to make sure that I eat and that the laundry is done so I have clean clothes to wear. Society expects me to find love at first sight and fall magically in love, get married, and have children. Why is it when we are younger that we cannot wait to grow up? I am finding no pleasure in being an adult. I'm a terrible adult... It seems that I can't do anything right! I eat out more then I cook, I put off doing laundry for as long a physically possible, and I procrastinate on my homework. College, love, thinking about the future... this shit is terrifying.

I wish I could go back to age 7 when the only thing I really had to worry about was what color crayon I wanted to use in my drawing. Becoming an adult is like a slap in the face. I'm so over adulting. I really just want to be a child again. Growing up means responsibilities and responsibilities means little time to relax and that just sucks. No wonder adults are so stressed out, they have no time for anything! Half of the time, I'm turning down doing things with my friends because I have so many responsibilities.

My friends ask why I love sleep, it's because it's so limited for me that any time I get to sleep, I'm going to sleep. I've literally got to be the laziest adult ever. I don't mind the responsibilities but sometimes I wish I had more hours in the day. Yes, I can vote, I can legally get married, I can make my own decisions but that's all and with all those "adulty" things, comes responsibility. I know it will get easier as I get older but a piece of me will always wish to be a child again. I guess being an adult is pretty cool and I guess it's not all bad. I guess what I am trying to say is that browning up is scary but sometimes it's okay to be scared. Do what makes you happy and always remember to take a little time for yourself, even if it's a 5 minute nap.