Within the last three weeks, I have been battling more issues with my physical health than I ever have before. There are still many answers to be given and issues to be resolved and I honestly have no idea how long it will take to get to that point. With this illness, I have now made two C's on exams this semester.
At the start of this semester, I was SO focused and determined to make all A's so I can have the highest GPA possible for my Pharmacy school application next fall. Within these last three weeks, I have learned a lot about a lot of things collectively. One of them, specifically, is all you can do is do your absolute best. In conversation with my mom tonight, I told her I made a C on my exam, but that I was at peace with my grade because I studied all that I knew too and prepared to the best of my ability. College is no joke. We, as college students, can not be so hard on ourselves and equate to being a failure over a bad grade. Before this year, I would have argued against this thought. However, I did not know what questions were going to be on the exam. All I knew was what material to study for, and I did just that.
Sometimes, we are going to have classes that are easier than others. My niche is math and science. Some students are more inclined to history or the arts. We are all created with different strengths. I am so fascinated by those people in this world who pursue a career in a subject they are passionate about and do well. It makes for an enjoyable job for both you, and the person you are helping or working with.
Someone who has made a big impact on my life just within this last year told me in response to me telling him I felt like a failure, "Just think of the story you will have to tell!" Those words really struck me and really made me think on them. The battles we overcome are what shape who we are. On a piece of paper, my transcript, one might initially conclude I have not been successful. But just think of how you can use your testimony to make sense of your transcript, or better yet, how you can help someone who may experience a similar struggle overcome their battle. When I apply for pharmacy school, and it is in the Lord's Will for me to get an interview, I can not wait to tell about my story and what I have OVERCOME and why I am still enrolled in college.
So for those of you who may be battling something emotionally, mentally, physically, or whatever it may be, HANG ON! You CAN make it through! Just remember: You will have a unique and rare story to tell so they can see the beauty in your strength and endurance. The power lies with not giving up, even when you are at your strongest battle. If finishing the semester is all you have the strength to do, then cling to that goal and knock it out!
