What it feels like when all your friend leave for College

Hey don't know if you remember, but I'm a senior in High school this year. Which means most of my lovable friends have basically abounded me, let's not sugarcoat it; it sucks. I understand that my older friends need to experience life and enjoy college but I can't help but feel selfish when I miss them or don't receive quick reply anymore. My friends have been gone for merely a few days and I already feel like a bother and incredibly annoying for texting them. These are my friends for god's sake I know there's no hard feelings, but I can't help but feel unwanted.

Going along with the abounded tone, I also feel like I should be in college as well. I know I know senior year exists and I have a year left, I'm not delusional assuming I can jump into college as well. That's not the case, what I feel is that with the constant subject of who's going where and studying what robotically I feel as if I should also be programmed to recite the exact same speech every college-bound friend of mine has said. Yet when my friends leave for college I'm almost sure they've died because the level of ghosting I've experienced and or felt is outstanding. No need for a medium or Ghost Busters here, I am fully equipt to share with you the signs of a college-bound friend who will never be heard of again after they step on campus.

My college plan. Hi there, I'm just as unknowledgeable as you are right now. Anyone want to explain to me what I'm doing with my life? It's anyone's guess. As of late, the plan is to attend the local community college in my area for two years and then transfer to a college later that fits my major. The issue with that is that I don't get to experience dorm life my freshman year or possibly at all like my friends. Maybe that's why I'm so bitter, that my friends get to experience college to it's fullest and i'm missing out. I don't have the honor other kids do of saying in less than a year they'll be gone and moved into their dream college.It sucks not having any ambition to graduate and attend my dream college, meet new people, be crazy, dorm when I haven't even attend any college tours. I understand that those two years will benefit me to learn how to drive and drive more, to get a steady job and slowly earn my freedom until that moving out point. All I know right now is that senior year will be tough emotionally.