Dear Future Self

Dear Future Self, Here's What I Hope You Know

At the end of the day, happiness is all that really matters.

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As a college student, it's typical to constantly be thinking about my future. I have a variety of aspirations that I hope to achieve in the next 10 or so years such as becoming a dentist and marrying my soulmate, but it's uncertain that any of these dreams will be granted.

The important thing to remember is that even if I don't accomplish what I hoped to as an 18-year-old girl, it's going to be okay. I've always been a believer that everything happens for a reason and God has a plan for everyone, and I hope that I never lose that sense of optimism. There are only certain things in life that I have control over, and the rest I must leave up to fate.

All I can ask for myself in the coming years is to be happy and to eliminate anything in my life that would keep me from achieving that. I've always been the kind of person that doesn't deal well with change, but if something or someone in my life is making me unhappy, I realize that it's important to part with it.

My life revolves around my family and friends which is something I've always taken pride in. Although friend groups have reformed multiple times throughout my life, I have faith that in the coming years I'll have met all of the friends that I will keep in my life forever and will be honorary aunts and uncles to my children.

I have no doubt that even when I grow older and move out of the house, I'll maintain the same relationship with my family that I do now. I'll always be mommy and daddy's little girl and my sister will remain my best friend. I'll continue to keep in contact with all of my cousins, aunts and uncles, and grandparents. I will never have shame in the fact that I rely on my family for many things in my life with the largest ones being happiness and love.

I've already made a promise to myself to continue trying my hardest in college in order to secure a place in dental school and eventually open my own practice. It's not an option for me to give up on this dream even when organic chemistry or calculus seems "too hard."

This idea doesn't only apply to school - there will always be bumps in the road in life, but I hope to always stay strong and have the courage within me to overcome them. I know that there will never be a battle I have to fight alone because I have a surplus of people in my life who love me and would be more than willing to help in any situation.

There are many characteristics I can admit I need to reform and I plan to do so as time goes on. My goal in life has and always will be to treat others kindly and be a person that myself and my loved ones could be proud of. Like everyone else, I'm only human and I'm not perfect in any way, but I hope to have a positive impact on everyone who I come in contact with.

Along these lines, there are many qualities I possess which I hope to never lose such as my sense of adventure, willing to lend anyone a helping hand, realizing the value of a dollar, and so much more. Although life is going to continue changing whether I like it or not, I know it's of great significance to keep these traits in order to be the person I'm satisfied being.

I hope that in the next decade or so I can reflect on my life now and realize that events that once seemed like the biggest deal could become something worth almost no importance. Whether it's failing a test, fighting with a friend, or anything else I've wasted tears over, everything works out in the end. Instead of beating myself up over something that didn't go as expected, I hope to always use it as a learning experience and grow from it.

Even if I stray from my hometown as I get older, I hope to always be grateful for everything that it's done for me and always view it as home. Westchester is where I became the person I am today and as of right now, it's all I really know. It's extremely possible that I won't live in this county my entire life, but I'm very thankful to have grown up in such a beautiful place.

I can't even begin to imagine what my future will look like because my life is constantly changing, but no matter where I am in life, all I can wish for is joy and love and I'll be content.

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When You Make A Girl An Aunt, You Change Her World In All The Best Ways

When you make a girl an aunt, you make her the happiest girl in the world.

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My brother and his wife recently blessed our family with the sweetest bundle of joy on planet earth. OK, I may be a little bias but I believe it to be completely true. I have never been baby crazy, but this sweet-cheeked angel is the only exception. I am at an age where I do not want children yet, but being able to love on my nephew like he is my own is so satisfying.

When you make a girl an aunt, you make her a very protective person.

From making sure the car seat is strapped in properly before every trip, to watching baby boy breathe while he sleeps, you'll never meet someone, besides mommy and daddy of course, who is more concerned with the safety of that little person than me.

When you make a girl an aunt, you give her a miniature best friend.

There is something about an aunt that is so fun. An aunt is a person you go to when you think you're in trouble or when you want something mom and dad said you couldn't have. An aunt is someone who takes you to get ice cream and play in the park to cool down after having a temper tantrum. I can't wait to be the one he runs to.

When you make a girl an aunt, she gets to skip on the difficulty of disciplining.

Being an aunt means you get to be fun. Not to say I wouldn't correct my nephew if he were behaving poorly, but for the most part, I get to giggle and play and leave the hard stuff for my brother.

When you make a girl an aunt, you give her the best listening ears.

As of right now I only listen to the sweet coos and hungry cries but I am fully prepared to listen to all the problems in his life in the future.

When you make a girl an aunt, you make her the best advice giver.

By the time my nephew needs advice, hopefully, I will have all of my life lessons perfected into relatable stories.

When you make a girl an aunt, you make her a number-one fan

Anything you do in life sweet boy, I will be cheering you on. I already know you are going to do great things.

When you make a girl an aunt, she learns what true love is.

The love I have for my nephew is so pure. Its the love that is just there. I don't have to choose to show love every day, I don't have to forgive, I don't have to worry if it is reciprocated, it is just there.

When you make a girl an aunt, you make her the happiest person in the world.

I cannot wait to watch my precious nephew grow into the amazing person that I know he is going to be.

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I Wonder If You'd Be Proud of Me

Or if you even think of me at all.

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I wonder if you'd be proud of me.

My first thought when I wake up in the morning is whether or not you still think of me. I think about if I am wearing the right outfit if I were to see you that day. I think about if I am saying the right thing for you to want to want me again.

Throughout my day, I think about whether or not you're happy. I wonder if the feeling in my heart of missing who I thought you were is making its way to you. Sometimes I think about what I did to make you hate me as much as you do.

Sometimes when things get really hard, I think about picking up the phone to call you. Time keeps passing from the last time I saw you and during that time I've painted a picture of you that would probably only disappoint me in the end. Your phone number still sits in my phone and I go to your contact, wanting to call, but knowing that at the other end is not the person I used to know.

I wonder if you watch me. I wonder if the posts I make, pictures I post, and articles I write are viewed by you and whether or not you care to even search my name. I wonder if you ask people about me or if you care to know the person I am today.

Without you, I have changed. It has been two years and though time will only continue moving on without you, I wonder what would have happened if I didn't make the choices I made to make you react in the way you have.

When the sun shines bright on the flowers blooming around campus, I think of your jokes and sarcastic wit. When the rain pours from the sky and keeps me imprisoned within the walls of a building, I think of ways I felt imprisoned by you. When clouds form shapes in the sky that I can make stories out of, I think of the way life could've been.

Sometimes I write to you. They are the letters I can never send because I have to remind myself that though we knew each other once, you do not know me anymore. The picture in my mind of who you are now is someone who'd love me with open arms, but I know that there's no truth in that. It's only my wishful thinking out to break my heart once more.

I wonder if you hear me when I try talking to you. I wonder if the words I tell God are making their way to you as you go on living the life we always talked about when times get tough. I wonder if you're talking to God about me.

As I watch the sunset, I think about the last moment I was with you. As that chapter ended, I was only wishfully thinking that walking away would save me from further pain. In the end, I don't know about how life would've been different had it not happened.

When my picture of you gets too bright and I share it with others, I am reminded of reality. The screaming, crying, pushing, shoving, and hitting touches my skin once more in the form of flashbacks that push me further down into the depths of a depression. I am reminded of the hundreds of suicidal thoughts and letters that I've written once before.

No matter what, my heart still yearns for a hug. A hug where I can bury myself into your body and feel safe. A hug where I forget every worry in my mind and focus solely on the love.

I wonder if you'd still love me if I changed myself to be the person you've always wanted me to be. I wonder if you'd forgive me for walking away, even if it was for me to change to be a better person. I wonder if you'll ever even read this.

Days like today, I want to go back in time. I sit on the benches around campus and look up at the sky, down at the cars passing by, and listen to life move on all around me as I remain stuck. I hear people talking, see them laughing, and wonder if there's any way I could one day feel as alive as they do.

The truth is that I was never enough for you. No matter how much I changed, kept notes of what you liked so I could be like that, or just kept my head down and moved silently, nothing was ever enough.

No matter what, though, I still yearn to be loved in the way that I picture you should've loved me. Closure does not exist. You were the ones who were supposed to hold me down. But now I am nothing to you...I was always nothing to you.

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