We grow up watching romantic comedies that make marriage seem like such a fairytale. It's so not true.

We celebrated our one year anniversary 2 months after our daughter was born. I borrowed my moms dress because nothing in my closet fit. I felt so out of my element being out and away from Sawyer. Our life was so different and I just didn't feel like myself. He had worked all day and then had to leave to go work out of town that night right after dinner.

Definitely not a fairytale. Just real life.

Rewind a bit. We were married about 2 and a half months before I realized I was 2 months pregnant. I know there are women who love pregnancy. I wasn't one of them. I threw up nonstop for months. I ended up with a hemorrhage that caused me to have to take almost 2 months off of work. I was moody and miserable and sometimes downright mean.

Definitely not a fairytale.

So many people asked me "don't you think you needed some time together to just enjoy marriage instead of getting pregnant 2 weeks after your honeymoon?" Originally, yes I thought that. Now? No way.

I look back on those days where I would throw up and he'd hold my hair back and rub my back or watch One Tree Hill on Netflix with me for hours because I wasn't able to work. Or when he'd lay his head on my belly and say "Hi Sawyer the destroyer. This is your daddy. Please stop making mommy sick"

I wouldn't trade any of it for anything.

Yes we fought. I was a hormonal mess and he wasn't perfect either, but we figured it out, one argument at a time.

We are still figuring it out, while running on very little sleep and lots of coffee with a colicky baby screaming a lot, and sometimes us screaming at each other. (Let's just be real. It happens)

But, we make up. We keep going. When I was pregnant, I got to watch this man grow so much as he learned to take care of me, which prepared him to learn to take care of our amazing daughter.

Pregnancy, Labor, Blood, Vomit, Dirty Diapers, Fighting, Making up, Learning how to be parents and figuring out how to be good spouses. This is my real life fairytale. Never perfect, never easy but I wouldn't have it any other way.