Waiting. If you’re like me, you hate it. I consider myself a pretty patient person when it comes to other people. Kids for example. I mean if I could be patient with kids I wouldn’t want to be a teacher. But waiting at the doctors… hate it. Waiting for food to be done? I’d rather spend money on something fast. The thing I have the hardest time with is waiting to figure out what God’s plan is for me. I’m fortunate to feel like I know what career path God wants me to take, but anything else? Nope. I have no idea what the future holds. I have no idea who I will end up with or when certain life events will take place. I often sit in prayer and begin to get frustrated because I feel like I have been waiting for God to reveal things to me that he has revealed to so many other people. I frequently ask God, “Why can’t I have that part of my life set?” I’d imagine it’s frustrating for many people. The thing is, if we knew every part of God’s plan and what He was going to do next, it would not be God’s plan. It would be our plan. What would be the point of faith if we never had to trust? If we always knew what God was doing, we would never have to put faith into Him and we would always know what to expect. What I have come to learn (not only from my own experience, but also with the help of God and very knowledgeable, loving people) is that there is so much grace and beauty in waiting. You learn to put more faith/trust in God. There have been many times this semester when I have begun to get frustrated with God and that’s totally fine. But there have also been so many times where I have told God, “Okay. I’m going to sit here and let you do whatever you need to. I am going to go about my life, following you and hope that I know what you want me to do”. Whenever I start to turn my frustration into trust, I am so calm. I am at peace. I am a better person when I am able to put faith in God. So yeah, I know waiting is extremely difficult, but during this Christmas season especially, try putting waiting into practice. Try to find graces and trust in waiting. I promise you will find it liberating and you will find peace. You will never truly know everything God is doing. And that’s okay because it’s His plan, not ours. How comforting is it to know that our heavenly Father has a plan for our existence? How wonderful is it to know that you are here on this earth for a reason. What is that exactly? Well, you’ll just have to wait and find out! *wink* *wink*
