As I sit here in one of my hardest classes, on the verge of death by boredom, I find myself wondering what am I doing with my life. Well, to be completely honest, I am not really sure. I am kind of a mess; but honestly, who isn't? The older I get, the more I understand why Peter Pan never wanted to grow up, because at times, it kind of sucks. The older I get, the more I realize that I don't know as much as I thought I did when I was a teenager and there are a lot of things I am unsure of these days, but I am sure of these few things:
I have no clue what I will do with my life.
I have no clue what the future has in store for me, or how long of a future I even have.
I am more emotionally invested in Olivia Pope's love life than my own.
I am madly in love with my bed.
I am have a complicated relationship with college. (We do this really cute thing where I try to not care about it, and then it quickly reminds me that we're in it for the long haul.)
I spend too much time playing with Snapchat filters.
I need the constant reminders from Jesus that he's with me through every valley.
That everything will eventually, be OK.
I really love pizza.
I should be paying attention in class instead of writing this article.
It is OK to make mistakes—they are learning experiences.
Mom knows best.
I am blessed beyond belief.
Life is so full of uncertainty, but sometimes that's the beauty of it. Not knowing what's around the corner is part of what makes life interesting. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm 20 years old, I don't have all the answers and I don't need to. It can be hard not knowing where you are going with your life or what you are doing, you just have to trust that God knows what he's doing with you; He's known your path. In college, we start to get so wrapped up in the future, between picking your major and constantly being told that you have to follow this certain career path. You can do whatever you want with your life, don't let your degree audit determine what you want to do with your life. You don't have to have it all figured out, none of us do, but maybe that's the best part of it all.
