"What Happened? You Guys Were Perfect Together". Well, that is what we let everyone believe but behind closed doors, we were everything but perfect.
You were perfect the day I met you, you were nice and caring. That side of you is all I saw for months until things got rough... You left and I took you back. You said things would be different. They were for little bit until I moved in. It was great at first - 18 years old and I was living with the "love of my life." What could be any better than that right? Wrong, in this case.
The first month of living with you was great. Long nights talking or messing around. Cuddles and kisses whenever I wanted. We were doing so good. But slowly, you pulled away. We stopped watching movies, we stopped cuddling. I was there when you wanted me to be and I tried to be okay with it. I really did. But being okay with how you treated me was slowly killing me.
I could feel myself starting to become sadder each day. I watched myself fall out of love and normally, I would have stopped myself. But this time I couldn't. But you knew... I told you I didn't feel the same way I did when I first met you.
When I warned you I thought you would start to try more. But you didn't and I started to just let go. I never wanted to be home. We fought over everything. You criticized me for my choices and my life and made me feel stupid for making my own choices. I couldn't let myself feel like that anymore.
I asked for a break and that's when you realized I really was letting go. You tried to fight for me, but by then it was too late. I was gone. I let go because why be in a relationship when you aren't happy? Our relationship made me realize three things, though.
First, I will never let anyone put me down for my choices, I refuse to ever feel like that again.
Two, sometimes losing someone isn't always a bad thing.
Three, I am a good person and I do a lot for people and will choose to be in pain for other peoples happiness - but I realized not everyone is worth being in pain for.
Sometimes you just have to walk away to make sure you are okay at the end of the day.
