Recently I broke up with my boyfriend. I won't lie, the way he did it was totally childish and completely ridiculous. He ghosted out on me and just took half his things and left. Well in the wake of his disappearance it has been a great journey and honestly I found happiness again just being by myself. I didn't even realize how miserable he made me. It is nice not coming home to him laying on the couch the house a complete disaster, the dishes are never backed up now because I do them right after dinner, oh and did I mention the nasty junk food I wanted to scream about him eating are now gone! The relief I tell you!

In the wake of me finding my center once again, I have noticed guys constantly flirting and wanting to get to know me. It was crazy to me how when I regained my confidence the young men just lined up. It was like the floodgates had opened. I am not an overly beautiful woman, I am average I think. But when a man stops you and tells you "Miss you are breathtakingly stunning" Megan being the awkward human she is, just points at him and says "zap zap, stunning people is a super power." It was one of those situations that had blossomed into a beautiful friendship that I am really enjoying.

The thing is the timing is just not there right now, I like the company and jokes. But it is a constant battle every day because I really like this guy. I am constantly second guessing myself and feel totally out of my element. Like shoot when am I suppose to text, how much space am I suppose to give him and how frequently should I text. Gosh, I am so out of the dating game I feel a bit lost.

So like I always do I head over to my friendly neighborhood Google search engine and look up how to flirt through text and make sure I do not come across to clingy. I look for things how to work on myself so I feel more secure with myself. As I do this, it was like a bolt of lightning hit me, I am doing just fine. I am not clingy and I am not crazy. All the losers I had dated in the past were the ones who had issues, I am not a bad person and pretty normal by the internet standards.

So as I sit her wondering if I should be funny or not I just want everyone to realize that being insecure is okay. Just embrace your weirdness because I guarantee everyone has them!