I have always been the type to follow God to the best of my ability. I have always been the type to strive to be a better follower of God, but March 6th, 2011 is the day my faith was tested. I was sexually assaulted that day and my whole life changed. I was 12 years old; forced to grow up. I remember being so scared and not understanding why God allowed me to be almost raped by a man who I have never met? Why did he allow me to be touched by a stranger? I became every depressed, felt alone, and tried to kill myself two times. The only thing that stopped me was my Grandmother. She is my inspiration and the reason why I am here today.
After my assault I began consoling at Victim Assistance; I began to heal and started to like myself again. I lost all my friends and was forced to "relive" my assault not only in my head, but at school. My peers and the friends who I thought were my friends turned on me and spread rumors that I deserved it or I asked for it. I became the laughing stock. My straight A's turned to D's. My favorite sport became just a thought in my head when I would cry alone at night. My friends turned to people that I didn't know. The only person I had was myself, but at times I didn't have that. It's been almost five years later and I still think about it everyday, but just not in a negative way.
I was sick of living in hell. I was sick of being depressed and angry at the world every day. One day I put my hands up and gave my life to God again. Five years later I educate and help those in need through my business Brooklyn's Bridge of Love. I still thank God everyday for not letting me kill myself. I doubted my faith all due to one's mistake. I am a real life example of someone who almost ruined my life. I learned a lot about my self after my assault and finally realized that I am capable of so many things and succeeding is one of them. I have learned to trust my gut more and allow God to guide my life. I learned that if I try and make my own choices they will never work out, but If I place them in Gods hand he will guide me the right way. I learned that just because my life had a detour it doesn't mean that I can't get through it and neither should you. Don't doubt yourself or your faith.
