Dear Mosh Pit,

Where to begin?

We have such an amazing relationship, I can't seem to meet someone without talking about you or telling them about our adventures. I find myself wishing you were with me every time I embark on a wild undertaking. I am so lucky to have found you right at the end of my shitty high school experience.

I'm the first person you called last week with amazing news. When you told me I was the first person you wanted to tell, before your parents, I couldn't be more touched, but I wasn't surprised. We sat on the phone for a bit and discussed your options, and you told me that you knew that I always only want the absolute best for you.

I cherish the moments where I can elevate you. You make me feel like my opinion matters. When you call me before an athletic meet and tell me that you are just about to drop out, or you don't think you can do it, I have an opportunity to show you all the amazing things that you are and all the amazing things that you can (and will) achieve. Being able to help turn your attitude around from 'cannot' to 'can-do' is so amazing to me. I love making you happy, and I love how being there for you makes me feel.

You lift me up. When I had bad news last week, you were the first person I called, immediately afterwards. And you helped me see that it wasn't in fact bad news, it was just a new beginning. You listened to everything I had to say and gave me amazing advice, and you offered to drive almost two hours to come see me the next day, so that we could blow off steam and be best friends.

Whenever I've had a new (or old) boyfriend, they act as if they have to compete with you for attention- but we both know that there is absolutely no competition. You always come first, and you always put me first. This is a permanent situation. You can sweep in out of the blue, whisk me away, and nobody else can say anything of it, or be surprised. Because that is who we are. When I had a boyfriend who always questioned why you came first, my answer would always be, "because she was there when you weren't, and she will always be there when you aren't."

You put up with all of my drama in high school. After I dug myself into and out of the hole that is depression, you came out of nowhere, as you always do, unannounced. You showed me another way to look at life, where my anxiety doesn't have to be rationalized. It's ok to feel anxious, but I don't have to give into it. You taught me that people will forgive me, and I can forgive myself.The thing I appreciate most about you is that you don't let anyone make up your mind for you. You are your own independent soul, and you make your own path. You give people second chances, and you always believe the best in everyone. Don't ever lose that, because it's those qualities which allowed you to meet and accept me for who I was. You have an amazing ability to absolve someone of their mistake, and they become a better person because of it.

After having such empty friendships for the majority of my life, finding you and being able to invest in you has been one of the single greatest most rewarding experiences of my life. You make me a better person for it. Together I feel like we can take on the world with nothing in our way. We can steal a van and drive cross country, we can hop a plane and explore the world, we can set out without a destination, hell, we can make it to outer space if we want to. And the whole way, we will achieve more than an average person does while following 'the rules.'

The way we goof off together and the way we laugh is unparalleled. Looking back through funny pictures, crazy memories, and wild exploits is one of my favorite past times. No matter how slow the world may be moving, I find solace in knowing that someday soon we will be drinking tequila and finishing our essays last minute.

Everyone thinks they have the best friend to beat all best friends. But I know that everyone who has met us knows that there is no friendship like ours. I don't think many friends can say that they share friends and lives, across state lines. I can come visit you and be visiting your roommates too, and the same goes to you. We truly share everything. You have given me everything, stood up for me time and time again. My life would be so different without you; nearly empty.

I adore you, I love you, please drive to Boston soon so we can make fools of ourselves once again. See you this week (probably).