In life, we often experience much tragedy that makes us alter who we are as a person mentally and sometimes physically. We as humans try to hide our weaknesses brought on by personal suffering, which we find we tend to blame ourselves or ask questions that we don’t have answers to. And in us doing this we unwillingly search for someone, anyone to make this uncertainty become a clarity. I know this from personal experience and when I look back now I found that I was asking all of the wrong questions. By asking what was unknown and constantly blaming something, anything I ultimately lost myself and redefined the person in whom I saw I was becoming because of something I couldn’t change.
The saddest part in this unexpected mess is that relationships and bonds are made. What makes it sad is that nothing was able to change or made different until something finally forced you to face something bigger than who you are, something that made you realize some relationships can be bettered by an unexpected bond. I witnessed this for myself when I lost who I was and many of those who influenced the person I use to be and found someone, my someone who made me realize my true self. Now I know there are bigger tragedies, but this one was life altering enough. I lost many friends, many family members who felt it wouldn’t last and people who just gossip.
I found that with losing who I use to be, I could finally be the real me and it was worth experiencing. I used to ask myself when I would be happy? What would make me happy and never did I think it would be with someone who was hidden in everyone I called friend shadows. I had gone through life getting hurt, supporting everyone decisions that I never put me first until he showed me that I deserve happiness, too. He made me realize that not every tragedy has permanent damage left behind, but a new mindset and understanding of the very thing that broke us at one point. This person is amazing and our unexpected bond is well worth the suffering.
As long as you know they will be there no matter what you can overcome any loss wither it be extreme or something within. I know that just as much as he’s helped me, I have in him as well. In every life there is change, and you can either embrace it as I finally learned or choose to fight it. And well, when you choose that, that will be when an even greater tragedy that you can’t overcome. It is never easy, but over time it gets easier to accept that you can’t always control things because life has a funny way of showing you that something better lay ahead and if you are willing to embrace this change your life will be full of many more wonderful yet unexpected bonds just like he will forever be my greatest change.
