We, as people, fear being alone. We are compelled to have companions throughout life, it's our nature. In our society, we are challenged to have companions, even to the point that we ignore the warning signs of an unhealthy relationship. When we talk about relationships, we exclude everything that’s not intimate. Involvement with anyone can shape and mold the people we are destined to become.
These people guide our motivations, our dreams, our whole new sense of self. Whether that's what we wanted or we simply lost control, it feels all the same I'm sure. It pits itself deep within us, to the point of no longer knowing who we are. We heard myths of loosing self worth at the hands of someone we thought would always cheer us on . But that someone, you loved unconditionally was only planning your demise. Slowly sucking any trace of the person you once had, leaving you colorless, scrambling for reassurance of this person you never thought you would become. The mentioning of that person's name sends chills down your spine, slows your pulse , and finally blurs the world past recognition. This silence is deaf defining, all that's wanted to do is hear again. More than anything you want to find common ground. Ground that you can step foot on without faltering. We pray for peace. This prayer goes unanswered, and you still lay tossing and turning in bed. I look for that answer. I look for that time I will once sleep peacefully.
As peacefully as before I let you take over my senses. All five. I see you in the simplest things. Hear you in all things we shared, music ,tv shows, movies. Taste in the foods we've come across. I feel every hug, every graze our skin has made. I smell the fragrance of your skin in the oddest places. There is no life with out you no matter how hard I try. I pray for relief.
