When my sister decided to look at schools in California, I never thought that she would actually end up there. I did not think she would leave her small town in Connecticut, the east coast, to go to a big city on the west coast. I think the idea scared me more than it scared her. It was strange that my best friend, who I never went more than two weeks without seeing, would now be on the opposite side of the country. Now, I wouldn't see her for four months. This all seems so unreal when you think about it, because it's so hard to imagine. Until this day, three weeks in, I never thought about not talking to or seeing my sister every day. For so long we were with each other and then one day that is taken away from you.
The day I dropped her off at college I remember thinking I was going to cry and cry. I never cried, I never even shed a tear. None of it seemed to matter to me in that time. I didn't think about how I wouldn't see her for four months. I didn't think about how I wouldn't know her exact outline of her day. And I certainly did not think about how strange and foreign this was going to be. Instead, I took in the pride that I had of being her sister. She has the bravery to go and experience this new world. The courage to try new things and be somewhere that she won't always see her family and wasn't sure that she would like. The moment I left her I didn't think about the sadness, I thought about the love we had for one another and all these awesome times we shared together. I know there is going to be many more.
And although it is hard to be separated from her, it's something that will bring us even closer together. It is odd when I remember that people here do not know I'm a twin, because it's something I have always been a part of. Here I am an independent person and I'm not associated with Ana unless I tell people that I have a twin, people would never know. Although it's good to be independent and your own self, it is bittersweet not to be known as a twin sister. This was always such a big part of my life. Ana and I have always been so connected with one another. She is my best friend and I know she is going to have an amazing time at USD. With or without each other we are able to thrive on our own. And even though I miss her greatly everyday, I feel a connection with her as if she is always by my side. Ana and I share the same moon and the same sun, so we are never truly apart. Although she is on the west coast and I'm on the east coast, we will never be far at heart.
