When you fully immerse yourself in another person, you begin to develop such deep care for them, to a point where it feels as though nothing can pull you apart. No matter the circumstance or situation, you trusted that this person would never leave, nor would you leave them. You find that despite the challenging highs and lows of the relationship, you have the ability to push through anything to hold you together.
You gave my heart a home. You provided me a place where I felt secure enough to be 100 percent open and real. You gave me the confidence to feel beautiful- for one of the first times in my life. I felt as though you could hear my internal thoughts even when I wasn't verbally expressing them. I loved you. And I know I still love you because the connection we had was there. It was so real to me. It made me feel grounded and important in ways I have never felt before.
Leaving you behind has been incredibly challenging. I feel like I'm losing part of myself, as you have meant so much to me this past year- so much. But you have also put me through some of the toughest days- days where I have felt unappreciated, broken, and worrisome. But I took you back; despite the pain you caused me because I put trust in you that I would never get broken again. I consistently made excuses for your actions and behaviors and I second-guessed my values as an individual. But you broke me again and again- time after time. You put me in some of my weakest moments, as I know I did for you too.
Through the good moments, I felt as though nothing could come between the love and friendship we had with one another. We had a bond that I truly never had with any other person before. But when the bad hit, it led me to lose trust in not only you, but also myself. I doubted myself- my actions, values, emotions and future in the moments where I felt I was losing you.
I wish I could tell you how much you have meant to me. You gave me more than I could ever ask for. I put so much energy into providing you with as much love as I could. I only wish the best for you going forward. I pray for your personal happiness and growth as an individual. I pray that God will place you in a spot of deep healing and comfort. I want nothing more than to know you are moving forward. I will cherish the memories we created together and I hope that growing apart is the best thing for the both of us. And maybe space is right for us. Maybe one day we will find our hearts back together since right now isn't our time to be together. Thank you for the times you made me feel special and like a princess. Thank you for your love and support during the hardest moments. All I can hope is that your intentions were as pure as mine were.
