Since our last encounter, I have tried to remember how we met and why we began talking. Now when I reflect back on our friendship, the details and the journey with you seems clear. I remember meeting you at a study abroad info session. I remember walking into the room, and there being an empty seat next to you. I hesitated to sit next to you, but I did anyway. Upon sitting down, we introduced ourselves and waited for the session to start.

Despite meeting for the first time, we were quick to make the decision to do the study abroad together. I ask myself why I was quick to commit to a such a big decision with a stranger, however, it felt right. Despite this promises, the shared situations both of us faced prevented us from going to the study abroad. After this meeting, we went our separate ways, and our encounters after this were limited to a mere “hi” or a nod of acknowledgement.

At the beginning of summer 2017, I prepared for a group interview, where I would go on to see you. When we saw each other, we were surprised. This interview allowed us to reconnect. You had been going through a hard time and I offered my friendship to you. When we found out we were going to work together we were ecstatic. Everyone at the training saw how close we were and split us up to ensure work would not get in the way of our friendship. Our friendship grew, or I thought it did. This internship would allow us to hangout all the time; in the meantime, I barely found the opportunities to see my other friends.

With time, I realized that our friendship was one sided. Everything was about you, not once did you realize the struggles I faced in my own life. Every time you spoke, I listened and offered advice. Not once did I judge your words, emotions, and your actions. I knew everything in your life pushed you to act a certain way. But the moment I showed you the guy I liked, you would judge him or even when I spoke about something you would never listen. I saw no point in continuing our friendship but I could not let go. There came a point where, I disliked our conversations and your company. My trigger point came soon when you put me in a situation which I had never faced at the hands of any friend, thus I knew that this friendship was over. I could no longer emotionally dedicate myself to a self-centered person. You took advantage of a situation and when I cleared it up, you denied ever doing such thing.

If you thought I was going to reach out I will not, you are not worth my time anymore. I have better friends whom I know will value the friendships we have. Some might say I am being petty but when a friendship becomes toxic, one must let go. Even though, our friendship ended I learned that I should not waste my time with people who aren’t worth it and for that I say “Thank you”. I do not hate you, hating someone takes too much time and energy, but I know in the future that connection I initially formed with that stranger at the info session will no longer cause sparks.

Like my parents said “Mejor sola que mal acompañada” in other words it’s better to be alone than with bad company.