I've spent so many years of my life wondering why I wasn't good enough for this person or what that person had that I lacked. Looking back at my life, I ask myself why I wasted so much damn time making myself feel incompetent and inadequate, when in reality it was everyone else making me feel this way. I've realized that instead of letting people tell me I'm not good enough for them, it's time for me to tell myself that I'm actually too good for them.
I am too good for boys who lie to me, and break my heart. I've spent too many years of my life on letting a boy decide my worth, and I say boys, because not a single one of them has ever been a man. Instead of wasting so much time on finding the "love of my life," I should've been focusing on my friends and family that already loved me no matter what others thought of me. I regret every tear I wasted on a male that broke my heart, because they were simply not worthy of the love I gave them, and that's their own fault for not realizing what they had right in front of them. Now, I truly feel sorry for them because I loved those boys with all my heart in individual ways and it was their mistake that they couldn't see that.
I am too good for people who try to tell me how to live my life. Why should I let someone control who I am? I shouldn't have to listen to people tell me I'm not the right size to wear certain clothing, or I'm not the right skin color to partake in certain sports, or say certain words. I'm my own person, and I will rock whatever I wear, play whatever sport I want, and mean everything I say. Just because I don't conform to other's expectations or standards does not mean I'm not good enough to do something. It means that I am too good to let myself be affected by other people's opinions.
I am too good for people who try to tell me how I should get over someone, or something. Everyone heals at their own rates, whether it's a broken heart, a death, or the loss of a friendship. Why does there have to be a time limit on how fast we get over something? Also, why does someone have the right to tell us when we need to get over someone/something? Like I said, we heal at our own rates and you can't force your heart or your brain to get over something that deeply affected you.
I am too good for the person I used to be. I believed all these people who said I wasn't good enough, and I used to let them control my thoughts, my actions, and the decisions I made all throughout my life. I will no longer let irrelevant people tell me I am not good enough, or that I should do something one way or another, because I am simply too good to not realize my worth, and be my own person.
