The constant routine of perfecting the daily schedule and re-living it over and over gets monotonous. One wakes up; one goes to class or work, and then heads home at the end of the night. Or something along those lines. Once the head hits the pillow, the thought of having to do it all over again is just tiresome.
Especially when it seems never ending. No matter how happy you are with who you’re surrounded by, there comes those times when you’re just not truly happy.
I’m writing about that time.
It’s an on and off feeling. You know you’re where you need to be, but you just don’t feel as good as you’d thought you’d be when you got here. Or you know where you need to be and you just can’t get there.
Either way, you don’t feel overall a sense of relief and happiness with your current destination.
The saying is said too many times but I’m going to repeat it in this case for you.
It is okay not to be okay. Just don’t beat yourself up because you’re not feeling okay. The constant state of happiness doesn’t happen. Yes, some fake it and ignore it all, pretending that their lives are picture perfect.
You are not one of those people and that is okay.
The feeling you’re unsure of while you sit there restless about the present is because you’re unsatisfied. You know what you’re capable of and despite how much you put into your work, your classes, or your job, you just don’t feel like it has paid off yet.
It will. Trust me. For right now, keep feeling that way. Again, don’t let it eat you alive all the time but it is okay to feel like you need to do more or be more.
Don’t be satisfied. Don’t ever stop and feel content with where you are at for the rest of your life. There’s a time where you will stop and retire and maybe just relax and feel fulfilled.
Until then, you can feel at ease but don’t ever stop reaching to do better, to be better, to feel better.
You’re hungry and no matter how many losses you’ll have from here on out, you’re going to keep winning if you keep it up with that attitude.
You’re not happy with where you are right now because you deserve better; you deserve more. Go do more.
Don’t give up striving to give it all you got. You are good enough. That moment when you can sit down and say “I made it,” is coming. Just don’t make it soon.
Making it soon means you’re not following your entire dream; you’re not living up to your full potential.
This is a normal feeling. Don’t let it scare you. Be fearless but be smart. And go give it a run for your money.
You’re priceless and powerful with so much ahead of you. Keep swinging.
Keep reaching. Don’t ever be satisfied.
